I'm creative again! Whee!! I've finished a short story and another is on its way. In addition to that I've written 3 new pieces of lyrics, which are all good if not great. I like them anyway, and doing something like this for a change is helping me to handle with work. And I got very positive feedback from someone who read them all. It's funny how ( Read more... )

I have completely forgotten that I have this journal in the first place! Spring stress is still killing me and all I can think about is work work work. Today I had to tell my assistant that he should really remember he has certain responsibilities since someone told me off big time because of something he did and didn't do. I have tried to explain ( Read more... )

That's it for the health-part. Otherwise I'm extremely busy with work and missing someone a lot. She really should answer my mail already, I have a really hard time waiting any longer ( Read more... )

My health seems to be a new thing I don't feel comfortable with when discussed in public. This is serious enough to keep quiet, although I over-reacted before. I'll concentrate in getting better from now on.

I'm scared. I went to see a doctor and he took my symptoms very seriously, when I told about my eating habits and the fact that I'm gaining rather than loosing weight. X-rays and blood samples etc. were taken, but I don't know what they revealed. But it was alerting that when the doctor felt my stomach it hurt much more than I expected. What if I ( Read more... )

FME was fine, both days worth visiting, although I didn't especially like any of the bands there. But seeing Helsinki was again worthwhile and my "date" was lovely. She and I made a deal to relax and enjoy each others company in every other way than sexual. And that we really did. I felt great, she's great (and very straight forward), but now it's ( Read more... )

I went over the top yesterday. I really should stop thinking about work related subjects at home. Ruining two days of my work isn't a reason to hope another person's death. Sorry, J.

Valentine's Day or not, I'd LOVE to butcher a certain someone... I really hope our paths will never meet again. I'll do my best to make sure of that, but life has no guarantees. Fuck off J!

I have gained a kilo back from those two I managed to loose! I really have eaten very little, very healthy, only low energy food products. In addition I've tried to exercise more, but somethings wrong anyway. A large cup of coffee and two crisp breads with cucumber for breakfast can't be too much, neither an orange/apple, a cup of tea and a loaf of ( Read more... )

2 kg lighter, still enjoying the process, not so hungry anymore, eating a little more than ten days ago... And the work is fine, I feel normal and obviously am a lot healthier now. I still get those horribly depressing moments every now and then, but they will pass by the next morning. I wrote some lyrics again after a months break (a long one, how ( Read more... )