so,

i got into pratt!

big whoop. big whoop. i somehow thought getting into my tip top choice school would improve my life but instead it has just made me even more depressed. i don't know why. i still feel empty inside. i should get off da meds.

so i've been late to school every day this week ( Read more... )

i just got offered full scholarships to 3 schools. these schools are located in my least favorite parts of america. that would be nebraska, florida, and texas. i can feel my parents begin to pressure me to just go to one of those fucking schools because they are free and free and they wont have to pay a penny save flights home for me every weekend ( Read more... )

everyday, i read the news, and everyday, it becomes more and more absurd until all i can do is crack up whenever i read about another rapist or "gay christians in nigeria" or iraq or murderous british youth or anything even remotely serious because it all is so pointless.

i want it to be the fall. i want to wear warm sweaters and fuzzy socks and cute scarves and feel that terribly odd sensation of total contentment and utter despair that only the crisp autumn weather can bring about.
i hate fucking summer. i hate fucking los angeles.

i've turned into a full-fledged insomniac. it's 5:30 and i haven't gone to bed yet. i have work in 3 hours. usually when i can't sleep i like to worry about my future. tonight i decided to do a little college research. i narrowed down my list. i think ( Read more... )

Today is the first day of summer. Unfortunately, i have not been able to enjoy yesterday afternoon/today because i have been FREAKING THE SHIT OUT about my grades. I was very borderline in every class and as a result, the finals were all extremely important ( Read more... )

it's 2:00 in the morning. i have a huge grueling ass-kicking physiology final in a couple hours and i can't seem to keep focused on studying. i mean, i do currently have an A in the class but the final is really make or break and whatthefuckever i don't care. i'm more worried about arguing with my dumb ass history teacher over 10 points that she ( Read more... )

i somehow managed to get my mom totally on board with the eurotrip this summer. for the first time i actually think it's going to happen, and it seriously is going to be more amazing than i had previously anticipated ( Read more... )

i am ( Read more... )