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I've seen the light at the end of the tunnel.

I'm going to be just fine...

Do me a favor & shoot me between the eyes.

I'm disgusted with myself.

Call me this "beautiful" butterfly if you will...

...but my wings are torn.

I'm dying againI need someone here to hold my hand.

What I'm about to do next may be the dumbest stunt I've pulled to this date.

However, I have no one here to stop me.

I have no one here to see through my "innocence" facade.

So what exactly is there to stop me?

Nothing
I won't be smiling this week.

Can't promise I'll be breathing either.

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Ooh...baby.

I'm simply itching to get my ass back on the dance floor.

The beat of the music pulsing across the floors.

The feel of my pulse in my stomach.

The rhythmic wave of movement from the dancing bodies on the floor.

And every movement is like a mating call only to reject those who may respond.

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I've caught myself running.

I'm looking for any excuse to run into hiding.

The fact that I, Jessica...'SICA, could have let her guard down long enough to permit someone to make me actually feel...it's weird.

As long as I can remember...I swore to myself that something like this would never come to be.

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Heartache.

I miss him so much: Billy.

If I could transfer from SHSU at this very moment...I would.

I'm at my happiest when I'm with him.

But because I'm more than aware of this...I fear him as well.

He's the only one with the power to tear me down.

How?

He has my heart.

I'm done denying it.

Many would ask: How can you trust him? He's hours away from you.

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Drama, drama, drama...

My friend, Michelle, who was pregnant in Lousiana while at college...

She had an abortion.

The day she had an abortion...her parents found out.

Her parents are in Texas still. She's away at college.

She had only told two people in Texas about her being pregnant and that was me and another friend.

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I spoke with Billy last night.

I had emailed him earlier that day about our future together as friends or otherwise.

I was frustrated. I had four guys within one day beg me to hook up with them.

One of which I had never even met.

That guy was a friend of Billy's who happens to be staying with him in Austin.

I don't like this kind of male attention.

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