So I'm sitting here....alone, left with only my thoughts of the events of the past few weeks and the pressure I feel because of them. I guess the easiest place to start would be at the beginning. On Saturday the 23rd, Eric came home from drill and told me that he was without a doubt going to Iraq. He also said that he didn't want to see me cry ( Read more... )

So I'm beginning to think that I am crazy. I've been crying for like 30 minutes. Why you ask? (ok so you probably didn't care why, but you're gonna find out) I want a baby. As corny as it sounds, I feel like something is missing from my life without one. The urge comes and goes for me, and I will grant you that it is strongest when I'm around ( Read more... )

I now have officially 26 days until I'm going to be married! How exciting! I worked my first 40 hour week of the summer last week. It kinda sucked, but the paycheck will be great on Friday. Went to the lake with Eric, Christine, and Jason Friday night. It was fun....Chris's family came out which was somewhat awkward, but was still fun ( Read more... )

"To let go isn’t to forget, not think about or ignore. It isn’t winning and it isn’t losing. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. It’s not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and its not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories but to overcome and to move on. It ( Read more... )

So here's the update on what's been going on lately. Eric has turned into a total gem of a boyfriend this last week. We had our rough period the weekend before and he said that he would get better. Unlike normally when he says he will change, he actually made changes. He's been cuddling up next to me while we watch TV, he took a walk with me, ( Read more... )

So sometimes I get really upset with the way things are in my relationship. It's never over anything big and it's probably just stupid worries that are just cause by PMS or something stupid like that. But nonetheless, I'm kinda feelin down right about now and feel the urge to get things out. Have been watching Dawson's Creek for the past.....2 1 ( Read more... )

Haven't written in this one since the very beginning, so I thought I'd update, not that anyone reads this as far as I know. I saw the ex the other night while picking up a friend from a party. It actually went reasonably well. Was the first time he'd seen the engagement ring, which he thought was "gay." But anyways, it's all cool. I am now ( Read more... )

At first, I didn't think that writing in an online was a good idea. Then I decided that I might give it a try. I have had a very stressful past few years. Almost 2 years ago, I ended a 3 year relationship which was quite possibly the hardest thing that I have ever done. After that I went through a rough period where I became very wild. Then I ( Read more... )