Once again ive been a worthless human and havent done a damn thing. i couldnt even update my journal once this while week as i sat here consistantly on aol. i truly suck. anyway the week played out pretty fairly decent id say. ariel returned from the mother country as of tuesday. unfortunately due to his poor sleeping trends [most similiar to mine ( Read more... )

Yep so ironically enough i havent updated in a while. how unusual of me lately. ok. whatever we all know im a fat mess with little drive to do anything involving movement. [except eating of course ( Read more... )

Today was a great day. Woke up to my mom furiously yelling at my brother. from that moment on i knew it would be a swell day. getting into school there were no cars in the parking lot and while in the halls none of my few friends were visible. paniced i decided to roam the halls until 8:15 looking for people and depending on my results deciding if ( Read more... )

Due to recent past events my mind has been plagued and while in the shower moments ago i had an awakening of some sort. sadly the person this is directed to {you all know who it is} will not get to read it. unless some freak accident occurs. and so..here goes my rant ( Read more... )

Random thought- Waking up in a cold sweat from a nightmare is definately not a good sign. maybe im not as over it as i think? lauren and jon doing weird things to one another in my mind most certainly haunted me. i cant move on. its driving me beserk. WHOREiffying. seriously ( Read more... )

wow, this week was long and short at the same time. odd. spent a full 8 days with chris. dont know how i feel on that. i was annoyed alot of the time. but it was fun as well. in good company the whole time i was able to forget and move on. tuesday was the class v-ball game. 04 girls made a ridiculous comeback to beat the 11th grade varsity team! i ( Read more... )

Adidasscrgrl3: ooh well its ok mines gross tambien ( Read more... )

Yeah. its been a bit huh? umm well so i picked up chris on friday nite. late. it was an interesting trip there at 2am and back. fun times tho. we talked for a while, all went well and such. next day was spent at the mall with ven. we had silly times. babysat the kiddies at nite while my rents went to a church dinner? once home my mom accompanied us ( Read more... )

Past few days have been grand. no school. 2 trips. AHA was boring as usual but i did see the girls from my soccer team and one that i used to do gymnastics with for years. it was great to remember the old days with her. ooh the laughs and how often i was in trouble. fun fun. productiveness done at AHA- invented an incredible anti-drug story based ( Read more... )

So this week has filled me mostly with a feeling of anxiousness. Chris comes friday and Ariel in somewhere around 3 weeks. [ill play it off like i dont know the exact numbers so i can seem not as lame]. Beachy's visit isnt going to be too rough. Or atleast i dont see it as being so. ariel on the other hand shall be a challenge. and not the usual ( Read more... )