it hasn't gotten any better. In fact. life sucks. I am so sick on having people angry at me, being rude to me, and being unhappy. And not understanding anyone. Like why the fuck there's a cat in my living room when I came home today, why Allayne has been so flaky lately, why Ryan is being so short with me, why David and I aren't on the same ( Read more... )

ok. that's how I'm going to start off. i got nothing else. i had to find a refuge, a place to hide and clear my mind. in part, i'm glad that there are guys in my life that are worried about me. i know david would be here if he could be, but we chose together......TOGETHER. that he would go back into the army full time. so i can't be bitter. ( Read more... )

I'm faced with a really tough problem. David and I got into a fight last night, the first one like this. That's not the problem though. I told David about my problem, and he started tellin gme what he would do, and that I'm not trying hard ennough. Basically the same response I've got from a lot of other people, a response that is driving me ( Read more... )

Ya so me and the garbage disposal had a bonding moment last night. I do feel better, thank you Sarah and Caleb. So I was on number 5 last night, ciggarette number two and the disposal was calling my name. The sink was full, God bless armana and their double sinks ( Read more... )

alright folks this is it. my insomnia has taken me to a new low. so i'd like to say i was abandoned, but more like just a lonely friday night. first time i've been drunk at home, sounded like great idea at first. i wish i could wtie more, but i think i'll finish this later. wow. that was the first time i threw up, in a while, and it felt

I talked to my advisor the other day, got a lot straightened out. I'm still mad at what happened, it was a mistake made by someone so far out of my control it's not even funny anymore. But it will work itself out. In the meantime, my back is killing me ( Read more... )

So my computer is acting weird. It's just randomly shutting off. I hope it lasts til the end of the semester! Only 8 more days buddy ( Read more... )

Ok, so I calculated my grade for this one class, I'm right at 80%. I need a B in that class, along with all my other classes. I hate the way GPA is calculated, for reasons we won't get into right now. But that made me extremely happy, it's a huge stress relief. Now if only my advisor was here, so we could talk. That's ok, the baseball team is ( Read more... )

So I've decided I've got no motivation in me anymore. I'll just sit here and watch tv.
Sounds good? I think so.

My paper is finally done. So now I'm procrastinating. Why might you ask? Because I also have to study for a test in the morning at 8, and I have class at 6:30, so as it's 3:09 right now, I'm exercising my right to write in my livejournal to tell you about my day, then I'm going to go home, get some breakfast, and most likely study til 6:30, cause ( Read more... )