I'm getting really tired of this "I'm fine and happy" act. The problem is, there isn't a soul left on this earth who I will tell what I really feel at this point.

Guess there's nothing like being alone. But I'm not going to make a big deal out of it. Why? See above.

I guess there's pretty much been a drought in journal entries from me lately. Ironic, considering. I've been more miserable in the past month than I have ever before in my life and usually the entries pour forth in such times. I've thought about posting what my family and I have been going through so that maybe people could have an understanding ( Read more... )

When in the process of burning bridges, you reach a point where it would still be easy to go either direction. So turn around before it's too late? No. I think I've finally made up my mind to keep going forward; hell, burn all of the rest of them... just so long as I don't ever turn around to see what's behind me ( Read more... )

Reflection is long overdue...

So it would appear that after a pretty crappy quarter and an even crappier winter break thus far, that things are finally looking up. Where to even begin?

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I'm vaguely starting to wonder if I'm developing a panic disorder. I just don't know what's going on with me. After the traumatizing week I've endured, I'm not all too surprised at my current condition. I didn't think I had it in me to completely hold it together ( Read more... )

I seriously feel like I'm doing everything I possibly can to keep myself from sinking under- the worst part being that it's not even working. I just don't know how to deal with shit anymore. It's like I'm to the point I don't even want to deal. Part of me just wants it all to be out of my control... however out of control it would take me being. ( Read more... )

There is surprisingly not much for me to say considering how much has been on my mind as of lately ( Read more... )

Alright, despite the fact that it's almost 4 AM, I really cannot help myself. Not to mention, sitting in the basement of the oldest and creepiest dorm building on campus isn't really where I want to be, but it seems as if I've been having this problem a lot lately. No matter how tired I am, I just can't seem to fall asleep. It's like my mind is ( Read more... )

Things just haven't been the greatest. Well now, isn't that just the understatement of the century. I don't expect any of it to change soon. Somehow, I'm going to have to find a better way of dealing with it than I am right now ( Read more... )

[And I'm tired of forgiving. Chances are, if I'm angry, you deserve it- Probably more than your shallow little mind will ever comprehend ( Read more... )