Work tomorrow. And other work the day after that. And a day off after that. Then school.
Fun Fun Fun.
But work is good.
I have to go paint a house tomorrow, for too little money under the table. Then my new job at the bakery which I am very excited for.  I have always wanted to work making food, and I  finally have a chance to.  Sweet.

And then ( Read more... )

I hate me. I seem to get myself into situations that need not arise way too often. Whatever I say, be it as trivial as hello, seems to get me a scowl from one and a slap from another. All I ever want to do is talk to someone, since I can't talk to my parents or my guidance counselors, but whenever I talk, I dig my own grave deeper and deeper. It ( Read more... )

King Richard's Faire tomorrow will be fun. Yet I am preoccupied now. The health of my friends is in danger, and I hate being so helpless. I can't force them to stop hurting themselves. But for my heart's and their own sake, consequences be damned, this has to stop sometime.

Thats the second time I've made an ass of myself this week, maybe the third. I was told on monday that my ex-girlfriend was willing to go back on speaking terms. Apparently she was only ignoring me because I was ignoring her. Right. No, I was only too much of a wimp to even make eye contact for the first two months of school. Then when I'm finally ( Read more... )

Tool!

I went to the Tool show show at the Tweeter Center last night. It was indescribable. The best show I've ever seen. To give you an example, its ten o'clock, and my hearing still hasn't recovered. It was Loud! And it was the most evil goddamn thing I've ever seen. Their lead singer, Maynard, is the coolest person I've ever seen. I can't ( Read more... )

Cry not The Lonely, you have each other.

When I saw your face, I became a Prisoner of Your Eyes.

Like a sinner before the gates of heaven, I come crawlin' on back to you.

Waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door, Who is it for?

She said, I know what its like to be dead

Soy un peredor, I'm a loser baby, so why don't you ( Read more... )

Somebody kill me please. I looked absolutely hidious at collin's party, and now feel like crap. My costume looked terrible, no one liked it, and I am now convinced never to wear form fitting clothing ever again. That was one of the worse, and more prominent mistakes in my life.

Grr...

Very angry at myself now

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Hmmm...
I just don't know what the hell is going on anymore. I'm so confused about how I feel about people. Religion is pulling me away from my best friend, but i'm trying not to let it get between us. I really don't want this to happen. Its all in my head, I know it. It shouldn't even be an issue, but I feel so bad saying no to my personal ( Read more... )

I had an interesting day today, as usual. I got to climb up ladders to fix our mildew-y  windows. My grandfather, who is a house painter, came to help and it was actually fun.  I feel better. I did something today, something real, and it feels good. Monday was the shittiest day of my life for various reasons, but i genuinely feel better today and I ( Read more... )

Again I  have to apologize for throwing my issues out there. I was rude of me to pile that load of...well, crap all over everyone. You all know what, no one should read any of my entries anymore, because I am compulsively drawn to put them up, but no one wants to read a paragraph of me ( Read more... )