Every failed relationship and every failed not-quite-relationship that Ive had in my life all had good parts to it. I like to think that when I find the perfect man, he will have all or most of the qualities I loved about the guys I've been into in the past. I think it will go like this ( Read more... )

I am SO over self loathing men with low self esteem, emotional baggage, and trust issues. The next guy had better be happy, have his life together, be headed somewhere in life and have a plan to get there. When I look into his enchanting eyes, I dont want to see a big void of darkness or sadness. Im tired of spending so SO much time trying to lift ( Read more... )

I keep having random angsty, bitter thoughts running through my head. The kind of thing I  might usually post publically..but seeing how almost no one sees/reads this, and how it makes me feel better to post it anyway, here you are.

*You can shine your Cadalliac, another way
...with the last drop....
....of spit.
....that I had in my mouth.
I was ( Read more... )

I'm feeling ferocious today....and I need to rant and vent and you know, Facebook just isnt the place for that. People get all "o.O um like...." when you post honest, real, things on there. We all have days like this. My head is full today, after talking with STAN for 3 hours last night, and after this morning.

Part I
Dad wakes me up at 6Am to move ( Read more... )

Random thing I started thinking. I got as far as E in my head before I decided to post it here ( Read more... )

Today I ponder exclusivity. What in us drives us to want it in a relationship? Even a heterosexual type relationship, people want to know that they have at least one person who is their best friend, and "theirs" alone. I have come up with a few possibilities for this ( Read more... )

Sleeping beside someone is more personal than having sex with them. Granted, sex is still very personal, but to sleep beside someone-that takes it a step beyond. When a person sleeps, they are at their most vunerable...they have let their defenses down. People do and say things in their sleep that is governed by their subconcious mind ( Read more... )

To keep things simple, and to avoid swiching pronouns all over the place, I am going to write this from a woman's point of view, and talk about "he ( Read more... )

This weekend was crazy! It was as great as it was awful.

The badI had to move. The movers were supposed to show up at 11AM and be done after 2 hours. It took them 4 hours (although I only paid for 3 after complaining), and they still didn't get everything. Ended up costing me another $100 in movers fees, gas, mileage etc. I didn't get much sleep the ( Read more... )

This is mostly for myself, to be able to keep track of days. It also allows you to spy on me and know what Ive been up to hahahahhahahahhahaha okay yeah ( Read more... )