I was once told there was hope, that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. I was led to believe that things would get better soon, but how I have reliezed just how wrong I was. There was no light, no hope, and no future where I was looking. I asked for why. I asked for the truth but recieved not so much as a word of sarrow. This journal ( Read more... )

Why! Why did all this happen? What did I do wrong to make you leave me? I sit alone at night asking the world what I should change, what I should do so it doesn't happen again. I lost the one of the few things in my life that mattered, and this time I can't even find an answer. I lost someone who was so perfect for me in every way, I use to thank ( Read more... )

The last time I remember such a fear, such a consept of affection, of actual, true love, was in the books I read. In the religions that surround us. In surreal words that seem to comfort us when there is nothing but faith to keep us standing. Yet how do we repay that last, true love? We mock it! We turn our backs on everything we were taught ( Read more... )

I wonder sometimes what goes on through peoples heads. It cuts you deeper than anything else when the closest person to you becomes distant without you knowing why. It cuts you so deep you wonder that if you will become a slave to yourself for the rest of your life wondering why it happened, only realize in the back of your mind that all attempts ( Read more... )

I was going to post another short story type thing in my journal about how I feel, but honestly I'm afraid to, so I saved it onto my computer somewhere, waiting. It seems that whenever I post something like that it does more damage than good, and that is the last thing I want right now, pain to others. Maybe I'm wrong about this, and it has ( Read more... )

Sigh, well this sucks. I was suppose to go see Troy this weekend but it didnt end up working out sorry to say. Also got to worry about reading 200 HUNDRED pages by monday...wow im screwed! TOOOOOOOOO MUCH! Well I saw the new episodes of DBGT, Yu Yu Hakishu, and Wolf's Rain which was cool. Wolfy! ^.^ So ya, I just want summer to come even if ( Read more... )

This is a short little thing I had written awhile ago, and just thought that I would finally post it for people to see. Below it is a song im listening with some touching lyrics. So please tell me what you think of it all ( Read more... )

He was killed by a cellular phone explosion ( Read more... )

Ah well once again I have to say that I am very sick. A month left in school, and I dont know whether I should be rejoicing or stressed. I mean it is summer, which means more free time hopefully, but then again there is english, which sorry to say, where I am failing with 41% and I'm not sure I can make it up all the way; God help me. Well this ( Read more... )

Well i went to see Van Hellsing, and to say the least it was GREAT! The wolfy won! ^.^ I just really liked the movie and would highly recomend it to anyone who likes action with those werewolves/vampires and such. Well...besides that, I just feel drained, plainly put. I'm still really sick, but barely well enough to go to school tomorrow. Doing ( Read more... )