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Can't sleep. Species dysphoria keeping me up. Stress and concern buzzing through my head. There isn't a quiet moment right now, my brain is screaming at me no matter what I do. I can't shake this feeling of insecurity, paranoia, depression, anxiety, and just utter hopelessness. I can't help but question the trustworthiness of everyone around me, ( Read more... ) -
Could it be, this misery will suffice?
The stress is getting to me. Just got over a health issue because of it. My anxiety is dialed up. I've been constantly feeling like a caged animal. It's hard to function under it all. I've been having all sorts of issues with my mood ( Read more... ) -
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The dysphoria is pretty bad right now. Worse than it's been a long time. On top of it I have this lack of motivation to do anything productive. I feel like I'm stuck in this vicious cycle ( Read more... ) -
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I wish I could just give up. Everything. Wish I could stop trying, failing, struggling, just... everything. It seems the moment I even show signs that I'm picking myself back up, something ALWAYS happens that takes my feet from under me ( Read more... ) -
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I've become restless. As if there's an itch that has consumed me from within, underneath the skin, always there, always without hope of relief. I hole myself up inside, because sometimes being outside makes everything worse. It reminds me of what can never be. It reminds me that I'm still so very stuck as I am ( Read more... ) -
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It's hard to admit that I do have a lot of weaknesses. That I've been so damaged that, even years later, I'm still feeling the effects. A part of me feels pathetic because of this, the other feels anger... Because it's mostly my fault that I'm like this ( Read more... ) -
Anyone alive?
Seems pretty dead, save for one person [Nauta, here's to you! :)] and the communities I watch, and even then a majority of those are quiet now too. So I'm wondering if I'm the only one who still semi-sort of updates on this site anymore. I'm doing good, finally got full time status at Geek Squad, so I'll be getting benefits at long last! I'm pretty ( Read more... ) -
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I'm so unmotivated as of late. Just this rundown, stuck-in-mud kind of feeling where all I want to do is just curl up and avoid everything and everyone. I don't want to be out in public, and I definitely don't want to be back home with my family. Not to knock them or anything, but it's getting to the point where I cringe to go back there because of ( Read more... ) -
Weeks of anxiety
I haven't been updating because for some reason my anxiety has been pretty out of control as of late. There's no reason for it to be this bad, none that I can tell at least. Other than the usual family drama or my itching to be out of this stupid place. Last week, on Wednesday, I had a literal nervous breakdown at work while I was talking to a ( Read more... ) -
HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!
OMG I needed this like nothing else in the world. And what's best is that I never expected it to happen today ( Read more... )