i'm a control freak ( Read more... )

my life's road sign....fuck me.

wonder_girl22 HighwayBankruptcity3Paintown13Bewilderment Avenue58Fame City137Dumpsville400Please Drive CarefullyWhere are you on the highway of life?

From Go-Quiz.com

OK..now on the count of 3...everyone just stop fucking with my head! please?

1..
2..
3..!!

i'll never be the one to make you stop and stare..
and i'll never be the one you put before all else.
and i might be the one who acts like she doesnt care..
but i'll always be the one crying to myself.

i'd love to go back to junior high school...or even high school ( Read more... )

i've always been a little late in life.
i think my path to self destruction..
which most people go through in their late teens..
early twenties..
may finally be hitting me.
there's only so much i can do to fight it off..
but it seems to be something everyone must go through..
and i fear it may be my turn...
hopefully i can at least soften the blow.

i'm not happy with myself for what i did thursday night.
its out of my character.
its something i swore i'd never do.
i've dissapointed myself.
and i might end up hurting someone else.
Or I may not..
I dont even know..
this is a new..
weird situation for me..
she thinks i'm emotionless..
maybe thats what i've become..

series of events over the past week or so ( Read more... )

and now i find myself in your shoes..
my walls are up..
taller..
thicker..
stronger than ever before.
sure my heart is fine..
but i want it to stay that way.
its my mind that is lost..
not knowing who..
or what..
to believe anymore.
so for now..
i trust only myself.

having my heart broken as harshly and deeply as i did the first time ( Read more... )