He once said, "Someday if we aren't together anymore, finding these little things you leave behind is going to make me think of you and get pissed off."

It turns out I left a deeper impression than hair pins and resentment. There's a big emotional chasm between us, and it feels fucking terrible.

I stood in the crowd at the Mountain Goats show, where I was sure everyone was thinking "he really nails it". Because he does ( Read more... )

Tonight I played beirut with a republican from Las Vegas. The cops came, and he got arrested, and I didn't feel too bad.

I've got a cigarette addiction, unbrushed hair, a small acting role at Amherst College, Paul's stupid bite marks on my neck, a bajillion books I want to read, holes in my jeans, homemade trail mix, chipped toenail polish, a head full of phlegm, an urge to fight or fuck or fight or fuck.

and I asked the driver if I should buy a ticket from him or wait till Springfield. He seemed annoyed and flirtacious at the same time, and said through his crooked teeth, "You know, honey, I really can't just let people get on without a ticket. If you give me cash I'll just end up stealing it and doing drugs again...is that what you want ( Read more... )

Place your pack of camels on the little round tabletop. Read a book and wait. Eventually, someone will approach you and ask to bum one, because the world is full of people who can appreciate subtle masochisms like smoking. After they light up, they'll start the conversation out of courtesy ( Read more... )

The next week is a strange limbo. A not-so-grand finale. Time to regather, slow my heart rate ( Read more... )

I thought about this while I was looking through the Gately archives, becoming frustrated at my own lack of ability to express myself in color and form. But I have other ways.

You can't choose what you are good at. Accept your boundaries, and work with what you have. Everyone's got their own thing. Knowing how to tap into it is what'll put ( Read more... )

“The central conservative truth is that it is culture, not politics,that determines the success of a society. The central liberal truth is that politics can change a culture and save it from itself.”

We don't have a half-empty glass, or a half-full glass. What we have is half a glass.

I like Ever After as an alternative to the whimsical Cinderella - she calls Prince Charming on all his bullshit, she is intelligent and doesn't waste her time shooting the shit with birds and mice ( Read more... )