I'm tired. I've been listening to Aimee Mann and watching Magnolia. Neither seem like something that I would like, but for the time being I love both. I think Aimee Mann's style of poetic music is genius despite the fact that I thought it was ignorant a couple of years ago when it came out. Plus she has this sexy dysfunctional thing going for her ( Read more... )

I'm just bored and evaluating myself. Today I was confused. I couldn't tell if I was happy or depressed. I swear I felt both at the same time but I don't understand how a person can feel both simultaneously. I didn't have any reason to be either. I should have just been content, but I've lost the ability to be content. I'm also happy or sad, there' ( Read more... )

The last 2 nights I woke up at 4am and couldn't go back to sleep. I get up, take a shower and make myself something to eat and still have time before I have to be at work. So I'm pretty worthless by noon. Today however I'm going to be worthless all day because I have a cyst coming back on my tail bone. I only have 3 days of vacation left for the ( Read more... )

Someday I see myself anywhere other than Texas. I'll have a decent size house, not a mansion, but extremely nice. It'll be in the greatest neighborhood ever and I'll have 2 dogs: A lab and a great dane. I'll be married and happy. My wife will have the most annoying dog of all times. That will be the one thing that I have to bitch about, because the ( Read more... )

My hope is growing and my will is strengthening as I continue to look into going to college and get out of this place. I found out that I could still be accepted to a university today. I was really surprised to see some of the universities that were on the list also: Princeton, Yale, Dartmouth. If schools like that would accept someone with a GED ( Read more... )

Well I've decided to stop bitching and do what I want. I'm going to find a crappy job and go back to school. I've applied on-line for financial aid (which I know I can't get because you have to be 24 for you parents income to stop counting against you) and I've started looking at other jobs on-line. That doesn't seem to promising either, but I do ( Read more... )

Last night I weighed myself and I was 209. This morning I weighed myself again and I was 208. I then urinated and was then 207. A little while later I took a #2 and I was then 205. So you see the whole thing is just timing. I lost 4 pounds in less than 9 hours. I've been working out alot and havn't really seen any changes other than my arms are ( Read more... )

Well I've had some good times, some bad times, some happy times and some sad times, but all and all I've enjoyed my life. The happy times I don't think I could beat and the sad/hard times have made me stronger. I've been knocked down and I got back up. No one will ever be able to keep me down. My heart and soul may be diminished, but they can ( Read more... )

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