OK, as if it could get any worse.....after posting my bulletin about Dez being an ass and all the things he did, I got a reply about it from someone very interesting ( Read more... )

I'm just writing this to tell everyone who reads this about the miserable pile of shit that is Dez, or as some know him, Chris Kenney ( Read more... )

I thought this was kinda funny. LOL!!

Well, all the new worries I had just a few days ago are no longer an issue. Had a yucky miscarriage today. And pissed people off cause I didn't feel like going out tonight. Whatever.

So, as Hodge would say, the cat's out of the bag. A week and a half after ending my relationship with Dez, I found out we're to be parents together. How's that for irony. God or Fate or whatever rules the universe must be laughing his ass of right now at my bad karma. If we were still together, I'd be a little worried but pleased. But since we're ( Read more... )

I left him a message on myspace, simply asking if he'd washed his hands of me, and that I missed him. He got back to me saying he's been thinking a lot, and his mind has become his little hell, and that he could never wash his hands of me even if he wanted to. I was starting to accept that I'd never hear from him again, to just walk away, but now ( Read more... )

Last I heard, he was "processing" all the things I told him about what I feel went wrong with our relationship. That talk happened on Thursday, and I've heard nothing from him since then. I left it pretty much open for him to call, but he hasn't. I just never thought he'd give up this quickly. Last time we broke up, he was calling & calling, ( Read more... )

What do you do with your time after a break up? I used to spend a lot of time just waiting around to hear from/see Dez, since we never knew when he was going to get off of work. I filled my time up happily, knowing I had something to look forward to. Now I don't have anything to look forward to. I went over to his house today. I just had to see him ( Read more... )

Another day has gone by. I've done nothing. I just can't bring myself to do much of anything but cry alot. I flip between pain and anger so quickly it makes my head spin. Which is the greater emotion in this? I don't know. I think they're fairly equal. Pain is obvious, and very abundant in this case. I'm just so angry.....angry at him, angry at ( Read more... )