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Update
Long time, no write. I'm too depressed to write, I assume. Anyway, I've been receiving hypotherapy, which is lovely (especially since all I have to do is just lay there). Therapy's been good. I go twice a week, and I feel some progress. The funny thing is we haven't touched my traumatic past at all. We're building strength and confidence ( Read more... ) -
Dissociation on Top of All Things
I go back to work on Monday. My leave was approved, which took some of the stress away. Late Thursday night (more like early Friday morning) I had a bit of a breakdown, which set me back. My dissociative disorder is running rampant again - actually, it never stopped. :-( The reason why I haven't fully processed those memories I used with EMDR ( Read more... ) -
Leave of Absence
I'm tired. I was cake decorating all day yesterday, which was awesome! I didn't have to worry about deadlines, cake orders for guests, or upper-management trying to piss me off. I had a relaxing, stress-free day yesterday. :-) Today wasn't bad either, although I was working in my usual department, Logistics. I think what made it easier was ( Read more... ) -
School!
Why is it snowing? Oh, that's right - I live in the Chicagoland area. Great. Just when the rain finally dissolved the last remaining bit of the blizzard ( Read more... ) -
Vacations Are Good!
Back from my nine-day vacation. I stayed at the Whitehall hotel for a week. It was lovely. :-) I stayed another night due to that damn blizzard. I went to the movies to see Black Swan, which was good, dined out at a few restaurants, went to a spa, and just simply enjoyed myself. I plan to take another vacation in six months or so. Also, I ( Read more... ) -
Vacation in Chicago!!!
I sooo need this vacation! At first I was gonna stay at home, away from my job, but all these wonderful ideas have popped into my head... I live less than twenty miles from Chicago and I don't have enough money to travel out somewhere, so I'll go downtown and spoil myself rotten! I'm gonna stay in a hotel for about four days, get a 4hr spa ( Read more... ) -
Symptoms and Indifference
I've been feeling better since my last post, but I'm still down. I'm beginning to feel indifferent and ineffective. I'm really not enjoying my life right now. I give up.
I'm having nightmares and bad dreams again. During my course of treatment with EMDR I was regularly having nightmares and bad dreams, but I haven't had an EMDR session ( Read more... ) -
Depression
I gotta be honest... I've been feeling rather depressed. Not 'a little down on my luck' depressed, but 'close to feeling suicidal' depressed. I stopped seeing my therapist almost six months ago, and I plan to see another one in January. I thought I was handling things well, but I guess I'm not ( Read more... ) -
Sup?!
Hello :-)
Just wanted to say 'hi' and let everyone know that I'm still alive. lol