ohhh things are so weird right now in my head.... i dont know about anything it seems in my life right now... like twenty minutes ago i was all down about stuff and now for no reason im like yeah who cares and feel like.... dancing... or something... lol. i think i need to like up my zoloft dosage or something haha. i keep picking fights with mike ( Read more... )

wow i havent written in here in soooooooo long. I'm back at school and all that jazz... been having a lot of fun so far but i need to start actually doin some frickin work. So today's my bday and I went out last night to the Bier Haus which was tons of fun and my girls surprised me with bday cake which was awesome... oreo blizzard cake.. yeah ( Read more... )

Mike is in Florida with Rob now... its been a lot harder on me then I thought and its only been like... 2 days. How pathetic of me. Hah. I thought maybe it would be ok once he actually went to FL and I wouldnt worry about what he was gonna do... but now its more like... what hes doing right now. And I really just dont have any positive feelings ( Read more... )

Yeah so today freakin sucked! I had to work all day then I went to the doctors and they surprised me with all sorts of not so fun things to do.... I thought I was just there for a prescription refill! My poor dad was out in the waiting room for like an hour and 45 minutes. Tomorrow I dont have to work tho and I have my drivers test (yes... I know ( Read more... )

GOD im so sick of being sad its not even funny. Mike was a jerk today and we ended up fighting for like two hours and then he finally was nicer and I went to see fireworks with him and Dave in Hiram. Then they decided to go to Rachel Penny's party... he invited me but first of all I have to open and second of all... I know I'd just end up getting ( Read more... )

The girls left for a week to go to Illinois... I couldn't afford to go tho so... yeah this sucks. I dont know how much longer Mike and I are gonna last and its depressing me. I havent felt this crappy or unimportant in a while... prolly since before we broke up. I havent even seen him in four days and he makes plans to play a video game with his ( Read more... )

Yeah so last night Angela and I went to Lakewood for a concert (natalie was spose to go but she ended up having two family things and couldnt go). It was good times except it was spose to start at 7 and the first band didnt even start till 8 and the one we went to see (Drowning Ophilia) went third.... damn. So we left and wen tto Arbys and then ( Read more... )

Besides a very cute pair of pink pants and a pink halter I bought while at the mall with Angela, last night sucked. I had fun with Angela but I was mad about Mike. We were spose to hang out cuz it was our... old... three year anniversary... but when I got home from work and called him to see when he wanted to hang out, he was just all pissy and ( Read more... )

Yeah so I just wrote out an entry and then the internet gave out on me... I reconnected and had to refresh the page... and my entry was gone... damn...oh well. Tonight I donno what I'm doing... I might hang out with Mike for a bit but when I asked him he said that he wanted to play a computer game so who knows... tomorrow is my only day off cuz I ( Read more... )

certain people really know how to get under my skin and upset me purposely. Too bad I'm not up for that anymore. There is only so long I will put up with it now before contact goes back to nil. And that so long is about up.