i have emotions about this episode but there are so many and they are so conflicted i just don't know how to express myself.
everything that hurt the most still hurts, even though Sherlock is alive. Even though he's alive, he still left John. He still lied to John, which makes me angry. But then I think of that scene on the roof and he was really crying and all I can think is... That, right there. And when Moriarty mentioned his friends, his first thought was John.
And then Martin. The first two minutes and the last ten. Martin Freeman. I love John Watson. He can't even go into the flat anymore without Sherlock. He is so angry at Mycroft. He's hurting so damn much and that kills me. It kills me.
And then I think of Sherlock standing watching him and I want to kill him! I do. I want to punch him. I know why he did it but... GOD.
John's reaction... Just, it seems... they've only known each other 18 months and he is shredded at the fact Sherlock is dead and discredited. It kills him, so much that he can't even go back to their flat
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I don't really have an issue with him lying to John. I think it's because if he hadn't lied to John then John would have died. When he tries to make John believe he's a fraud I see it as a kindness. Sherlock knew what he was about to do, he knew how it would affect John so he tries to destroy John's faith in him to make it easier for him. That kills me every time. That he's willing to have John believe him a fraud and a fake in order to make his 'death' easier for him to handle
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everything that hurt the most still hurts, even though Sherlock is alive. Even though he's alive, he still left John. He still lied to John, which makes me angry. But then I think of that scene on the roof and he was really crying and all I can think is... That, right there. And when Moriarty mentioned his friends, his first thought was John.
And then Martin. The first two minutes and the last ten. Martin Freeman. I love John Watson. He can't even go into the flat anymore without Sherlock. He is so angry at Mycroft. He's hurting so damn much and that kills me. It kills me.
And then I think of Sherlock standing watching him and I want to kill him! I do. I want to punch him. I know why he did it but... GOD.
John's reaction... Just, it seems... they've only known each other 18 months and he is shredded at the fact Sherlock is dead and discredited. It kills him, so much that he can't even go back to their flat ( ... )
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