So i sat down one day and thought

[words_of_ziggy]

i though to myself about what i am. holy fuck why arent you people kicking my ass. i have done nothing but set myself up for failure. i mean short of being suicidal i am pretty self destructive. i question the fact of my survival to this day. i mean no one could do what i have done and not lost something. right. i mean what have i lost. and

Comments

[treestarz]

That makes me kind of sad, but happy all at the same time.. I'm glad you are experiencing this though, it will help you grow and not loose out on time. But don't feel bad about what you miss, just go out and find it. I miss how you appreciated stupid things, like standing in the rain, and reading your journals/poetry and how each one meant something totally different than what I read into it. Each one was like an adventure. The adventure of Josh's life, told by Josh!

[komradekluck]

There is no way you aren't my BRO, it's been a difficult semester, i'm glad you realised soemthings and now are back in hte ring so to speak. I too will miss WOW but hey, the semster is coming to an end, and i can travel more and we can hang out, cause i will alway be there for you and the rest of my friends.

[tracerchick]

hope everything is getting better for ya hun.. i've changed lots too.. and in a sense.. i think everyone has.. that's part of life..

[c0lt]

The mind is like the tides...
it has it's high's and it's low's. When it's high on one end, it's low on the other. When you're having a truly troubling thought just remember that at the opposite end of your mind you are having a truly blissful thought. There's only two problems to this.
1: you are unaware of it becuase you are focusing on the negative.
and
2: When you are having a truly blissful thought, there's a troubling thought that's being supressed.
The balance that we all strive for will continue to evade most of us.
Staring at nothing was awesome. and I miss it too... sadly, I don't think we can even get back to that area now - if it's still there, even..

happy memories are created all the time. sad ones too. but remember what Baz Lurman(sp) said. Keep all loveletters, throw away the hate mail. Remember the compliments, forget the insults. And most importantly, wear sunscreen.

much love,
m.