You demand so much emotional labor, so much patience and attentiveness, from everyone you interact with, and yet you never seem to have any to return to those same people ( Read more... )

You know what ( Read more... )

I am a real piece of shit and I fucking hate myself. I have no way to authentically communicate with anyone, because even though I'm good at talking, I am shitty at expressing my feelings.. I am self-centered, I'm also a terrible influence on those around me, a disappointment to my family, and constantly letting myself down. I wish I could talk to ( Read more... )

why do you hate everything i like
why are you so fucking negative

fuck you

Today was my birthday ( Read more... )

like I can't do anything with you ( Read more... )

 I have been having a hard time starting a new journal.

I haven't felt ready to write something down, in address, in beginningI usually finish my journals before starting new ones, but this time I chose not to. Sometimes the pages become a place, and the narrative becomes redundant, and the objective becomes disappeared. That is the time to stop ( Read more... )

At a time when I'm already handling a fiar amount and I'm taking on a new role, and I could really just use your support and understanding ( Read more... )

My middle left finger has a giant burn on it, and the flesh is peeling off ( Read more... )

My favorite Christmas song... Despite the fact that I'm an atheist, the message of hope in this song has always struck a chord with me. I remember walking alone a few years ago around Gilroy, a day or two before Christmas, and singing this to myself slowly and thinking about the words. "Long lay the world in sin and error pining, 'til He appeared ( Read more... )