INTOXICATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was frustrated and stressed out earlier, but i feel like writing now..

I've discovered that i spend most of my life at an intersection.
directionless
and
wondering - which way to turn.

I've discovered that i'm a pretender. I pretend that I know where i'm going...

Here i am, at the place where red lights turn green and meet up with sparkling ( Read more... )

i'm fucking spent.

something has to change.

Tonight tonight tonight... lets get drunk.

OKAY.

A. small[ish] towns are terrible. i feel so fucking suffocated all the time. if the size of the area doesnt kill you first, the people sure as hell will. it's all these small minded conservative people with sticks up their asses. i've got people who i dont associate with, talking like they know. like they have any room to. like they matter. i ( Read more... )

I feel sick. It sucks. That's a stupid thing to say. Who's going to be like "I'm sick... but it's AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!" No one. I'm an idiot. So, Chinese New Year yesterday. It's the year of the cock. Take that how you will ( Read more... )

Or at least, nothing exciting that I can remember. I wish something would happen. But I don't want it to be too exciting. Like, say, a group of radical Turkish librarians decides to attack my homestead. But instead of a homestead they attack a wild bunch of carnie folk. And then in the hustle and bustle of it all a meteor lands on the head ( Read more... )

...waist deep and rising by the minutes. legs paced, in slow motion movements to counteract the bites. venom rushes into our bodies. our lips turn white with chills triggering our arms to lifting out hands to running our fingers to the corners of our hipbones as static blankets. can you feel the electricity- the sparks, emitting from our touch. so ( Read more... )

I've written more entries the last few days than I had in the weeks before, I think.

That's not the saddest. The saddest is this:

Well, the fact of the matter is, I am no one's number one.
I am not at the top of anyone's list, I am not above and beyond.
I am no one's one and only, I am no one's favorite, I am no one's best.
I am not saving anyone, ( Read more... )

all my classes this semester seem pretty challening. damn.

but hey, i just made a new layout for this and it looks pretty fucking cool. i get excited when no one helps me with complicated internet codes. so uh duh.. take a gander.

and make this weekend a fun one.

and it is my birthday on super bowl sunday.

yeaaaaaaaaah.

woot.