Hope=Pain

[wormgirl]

Everything I do and say feels like a whim and I don't know how to stop the thoughts that go through my mind. They race through me like a brushfire, leaving me feeling numb and unsure about everything I do and say. I wish I could find a better way than this. Everytime I feel happy and satisfied, my thoughts start and when they are able to take

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[wonka_vision]

Have you ever thought about going to the doctor and getting anti depressants? Because it may not just be you, it could be an inbalance inside of your head. I do alot of the same things and I seriously wish that I had medical insurance so I could look into it.

[wormgirl]

I have had some very bad experiences with doctors, psychiatric hospitals, and anti-depressants. That is a road I will never willingly take again.

[wormgirl]

I do appreciate your concerned suggestion though. Makes me feel a lil squishy that you care. **squee**

[cureme_killme]

I know all these feelings too well.. or atleast most of them. Its true pain is a reminder that we are alive, maybe thats why I enjoy it all too much

::hugs::