It might be premature to say this, since our plans are not yet definate, but I'm too excited to not let the cat out of the bag... lol ( Read more... )

I have been isolating myself from everyone, even the people that matter the most to me. I am always sad about my health and feeling so terribly alone. I am sick often, and when im not sick, i am in pain. When I feel so terrible, I dont want others to see me that way. I am embarrassed of myself, the plain honest truth. I don't want anyone to ( Read more... )

I read once in Lamentations somewhere that the more knowledge and wisdom one attains, the sadder they are. I have read the bible in parts over the course of the years, and I can honestly say that I understand some of it. The parts I do understand are the things I believe wholeheartedly, and deeply ingrained into myself. The more I see and know ( Read more... )

I have been unbelievably sick and depressed all this time. No one comments on my journal anyway, so I figure why bother? I'm still pregnant, and not handling it well at all. I have become disintrested and detached from most things, especially chat and journalling.

And who the fuck is jehovah ?

I've been puking for about 24 hours now. I'm not happy, I'm not partying. I have no dank and sicker than a sickly child. I've thrown up countless times today. When you think you can't throw up anymore, there's always stomach bile ( Read more... )

When I was in college, I did an extensive essay on kids who kill. Now, there seems to be a new trend in the air these days. Parents killing their children. I am sickened, disturbed, appalled, and thoroughly disgusted by the things I have been reading in the news articles the past few weeks or so. I don't remember things ever being this bad. ( Read more... )

I don't feel in control of the housecleaning...I feel like it's got control over me! Days of hobbling around to do chores, my hips feeling like they are gonna fall off. I've been procrastinating on seeing a doctor for a while now, but it's just so freaking difficult to get around to get there. Now I have to see a doctor ( Read more... )

Everything I do and say feels like a whim and I don't know how to stop the thoughts that go through my mind. They race through me like a brushfire, leaving me feeling numb and unsure about everything I do and say. I wish I could find a better way than this. Everytime I feel happy and satisfied, my thoughts start and when they are able to take ( Read more... )

...and I got a myspace.

Anyone on my list who wants to be on my myspace list? http://www.myspace.com/tailormadefordestruction

Hey biff-larken, check this out.

More fun in the Scott Stapp circus of stupidity....

http://www.glitteratigossip.com/glitterati/2006/02/two_for_one_dea.html