hmmm..havent updated in a while..ive been busy.. working 50+ hours a week and writing an assload of brutal new songs.. but other than that its the same shit, differant day

cant help but think as im sitting at this computer in this nice house that i would ever live like this, im from a poor ass town, no one ever helped me, no one ever incouraged me, so i said fuck you! i'll do it my way, i worked my ass off, found a nice girlfriend and a house.. but no one is really as excited as i am, theyre just mad cuz i pay my own ( Read more... )

the power outage during the hurricane gave me a lot of time to think about stuff, nothing really in particular but it was mostly thoughts about the wrong turns ive taken in my life ( Read more... )

We were somewhere near Barstow on the edge of the desert when the drugs began to take hold..I remember saying something like.."I feel a bit lightheaded; maybe you should drive......" And suddenly there was a terrible roar all around us and the sky was full of what looked like huge bats, all swooping and screeching and diving around the car, which ( Read more... )

im so fucking bored... i hate not doing anything and work is so slow right now.. im ready to tear my eyes out. maybe.... i kind of like the gift of sight. maybe i'll just tear a toe nail off or something, im long overdue for some self mutilation
maybe i'll build some home made fire works

In This World Of Lies The Truth Means Resistance

my mother is coming back to florida today, and im not quite sure how i feel about it, i'll be happy to see her but... shes fuckin insane.. literally.. i dont know..

Its my girlfriends birthday today, i dont have a clue what to do, im not good at this kinda shit... maybe flowers.. i dont know
somebody out there needs to help me out

Practice went well today until Wardo broke his snare head... our stuff is falling apart left and right, thank god for duct tape..
if only tape could get us a new P.A. and a new guitar and a new amp and some new cymbals and a new mic we'd be good for now

think im having liver problems.... it constantly hurts
should go to the doctor but dont have any insurance..