Today is such a Monday.  Already in battle royale round 2 with our accounting department within a few minutes of being at the office.  I really pissed them off royally on Friday (it was my fault, i take responsibility) but there are so many fucking rules and regulations to getting anything ordered or done here and we have one credit card for a ( Read more... )

I almost forgot I had an LJ for a minute there, I suppose it's time for an update.

My mental health has been in toilet for the past couple of weeks (as I know many people's has been). In fact, if you are not phased during this time, you are either in a coma or a narcissist. So much turmoil and tumultuousness. To add to the general stress, my mom ( Read more... )

I can really never get enough Bon Iver. Ever.

Ah life. Just keep throwing me curveballs, don't you? I have to believe in my heart that I have good things coming my way, otherwise things would be unbearable. Hope is what is fueling me right now. Not much else. Andrew asked me why I keep people at such an arm's length. I couldn't really answer that, except to say that evrytime I let someone in, ( Read more... )

I feel like I have been walking around in a nightmare. Will I ever be able to redeem all of the pieces of my life and of myself, or will I just continue to run into wall after wall? I am losing hope for myself and for my future.

I just don't know where I fit in this world...economically, romantically, socially or spiritually. When I am in a group of people, I always feel like I am looking at them from inside a bubble. Kind of seperate. I feel like people treat me differently, distantly and I cannot figure out why that is. It is very lonely. I am very lonely.

I wish I could just escape from my life for awhile. Throw my brain to the side and just run away as quickly as I possibly can. Far away. Maybe not come back.

TWO MORE DAYS! TWO MORE DAYS till you won't have to listen to me say "TWO MORE DAYS" anymore ( Read more... )

( Ski Trip Pics: If you dare. )

I hate that achey, pervasive feeling you get when you're sick. It's like it settles into your bones or something. I keep coughing and i feel like my esophagus is turning itself inside out. Nice mental picture, huh? So much to do... so little time ( Read more... )