two nights ago i had a serious lack of control dream. I was volunteering at some hospital in chicago with john when i started coughing up huge handfulls of fingernails. we went to see the doctors and they told me i was crazy and nothing was wrong with me, and then john told me they were probably right, as i continued to cough up the huge handfulls ( Read more... )

hey, almost 6 months, thats a long time id say, as i already established (see title). i dont really have anything to say.... just seemed like i should write something so yeah ( Read more... )

first day of school! WOO! ROCK! actually no, in fact, i totally didn't go to one of my classes today, on my first day. i went to my 9 am class, came home and, oops, slept through my 1:00 one. I TOTALLY SUCK! oh well, first day never counts... right ( Read more... )

chips, dip, and garden burgers. this is how i spend my day. how do you wake up at 4 am and work an 8 hour shift, stay sickeningly cheery the whole time, and by midnight 180 to pissed and upset.

i got my hair died yesterday. highlights and what now, like i haven't for like a year...... i think i hate it

tonight was good/ bad/ weird/ draining/ upsetting/ oddly familiar. I closed with RJ. We talked about stuff going on in our lives, reminised, made a craft, got serious and pissy and didn't talk for a while, complained about customers, smoked, laughed, and talked some more. It was almost exactly as i remember it being a year ago, yet oddly different ( Read more... )

Today i woke up and went to work at 7, fully expecting a totally chill day. I mean, i only had to work until 1:30 and didn't have to be back until 4:00 tomorrow. I was way excited. So noon or so rolls around and the girl who's supposed to come in at 1:00's boyfriend calls. "Serena's sick", he says. Sounds pretty shady to me, but my boss begs me to ( Read more... )

yeah, i spent my 4th driving, like around and around. then i came home. I went like all the way to oswego. It's like, i didn't wanna stay home but i didn't want to go anywhere, so i got in my car, blarred some Denison Witmer, smoked like a pack of cigarettes, and just drove. It was kinda chill and nice, but at the same time fairly depressing. This ( Read more... )

sometimes it feels like its easier to just stay home. like all the stress of thinking of who to call that you haven't called too often so you dont annoy them or something, is way too much. i know that sounds stupid, they're like my friends and stuff, but sometimes i feel like such an insane burden. and i wouldn't have to call the same people over ( Read more... )

So im walking out of the mall today from picking up peppermint syrup, about to go back to work, when this guy stops me. "Are you nice" he says. "um... yes... id like to think so" is my reply. "Well im on my break, but id like to ask you this anyways, so i have an excuse to talk to you, cause youre cute" at which point im intrigued. He called me ( Read more... )

everything is buttshit