im so confused. i was sitting on my front porch smoking a cig and talking to melissa on the phone when the most unlikely person pulls up. i was like "what the fuck do you want," and hes like, "jesus chill out, wanna smoke pot?" so he smoked me up. he said everyone else was being 'metaphorical faggots'. anyway i named my new kittie norma jeane. if i ( Read more... )

there comes a time when you swim or sink. so i jumped in the drink cause i couldnt make myself clear. maybe i wrote in invisible ink? oh ive tried to think how i could have made it appear. but another illlustration is wasted cause the results are the same. i feel like a ghost whos trying to move your hands over some ouija board in the hopes i can ( Read more... )

tomorrows coming round like a hair-pin curve in the road. shes got a run in her stocking and shes missing the heel of her shoe. got up this morning rolled out of bed, i spilled a diet coke on my mother said, "Hi." what i meant to say was: "Why is your life a joke?" then i went down to that ugly bar and i clicked my heels three times just like you ( Read more... )

i went out with abby last night. and chelsey and suzi. that was cool. we went to college parties where frat boys went crazy, and they shot tear gas. road blocks, bonfires, and shitty beer. i got whistled at in old town by some gross man while i was waiting for abby. and some skanky hoe told chelsey to pull her pants up, but maybe she was talking to ( Read more... )

no. fucking ew. me and melissa did really gross things tonight. like gross. i rubbed germ-x all over my body and drowned my self with mouth wash. but we were drunk and thats always a good scapegoat. oh yeah me and melissa didnt fuck or anything, if thats what you think ( Read more... )

i dont know why, but everytime i watch my so-called life i get as giddy as a school girl. i associate with angela so much, it sucks that the show got canceled ( Read more... )

ya know, i was really kind of looking forward to being by myself. but now that im alone, all i want is someone to talk to. i think thats always been my problem. i cant seem to talk to people about my problems, than i start flipping out and my friends are wondering where its coming from. i guess ill have to work on that ( Read more... )

me and melissa pawned some shit yesterday, and got pot. good pot. we were at cenntennial so her and stephanie could sign up for classes, i saw so many people i knew. more people said hi to me, than to melissa. thats sad. that ryan guy was there. he bleached his hair. hes still hot. i made him take of his glasses so i could stare at him. ( Read more... )

melissas coming over. human contact will be nice. weed would be nice too, but ill just have to wait on that. i havent had as many dreams lately, as i have in the past couple of weeks. but i think i may just choose not to remember them. i imagine enough things about him when im awake, why bother to dream about him ( Read more... )

last night was eventful, at least the parts i didnt black out. me and melissa went to meet apryl and stephanie and nick at cenntennial. that was all good. then we went to visit tim and morgan. jordynn brought pot and we smoked. nothing really happened. we got monica and her jello shots. and purple passion. yum. different people kept coming over, ( Read more... )