It's been what, a decade, since I've used this site? I guess the only reason I am here is because I don't feel that I can express myself anywhere else but somewhere that noone really ever uses or sees. I don't know why, but it is very hard for me to show any emotions beyond annoyance, happiness, or on very rare occasions, anger. The times when I am ( Read more... )

I don't even know if anyone is actually following and/or even using this thing anymore. But I looked back through a lot of my old entries...and it is enlightening to see my writing style, word choice, and overall how depressed I was for a long time. Rather interesting. Not sure if I will continue to use this, but it was an experience to look back.

So, haven't updated in 11 weeks. Lot of changes, lot of things goin on. I am currently unemployed. Long story, not going into it since I've had to tell it so many times. But it is pretty much a good thing, I hate my life less now that I'm not in that place. It wasn't that bad of a place to work, but the team I was supervising were the whiniest ( Read more... )

Ya so, why is it that when you need someone to talk to...you don't have anyone? Sucks ass. Guess since I know how it feels to not have anyone to talk to is why I always make myself available for everyone else. Just wish it worked both ways.

So, several new things in my life. Not really but figured I'd ramble about something. So recently I've been talking again to my ex from high school. For those of you that don't know, this was my first serious relationship, the first girl I ever had sex with, blah blah. Needless to say, she was someone at one point that I cared deeply about. The ( Read more... )

So, I previously wrote about my one experience that weekend which was quite disheartening...now on to my other. There is another woman from work whom I have been speaking with for quite some time, since probably last April. She and I have fairly decent discussions, she's about a year and a half older than me and fairly well educated (She has a ( Read more... )

So, new updates in my life. I have now officially rejoined the ranks of the single bachelors, and I must say its rather depressing. Granted, I was the one that broke off my relationship, but you don't realize how many friends you lose when the person your dating only ever wants to hang out with you, and you alone, and you go along with it for over ( Read more... )

Yet another long hiatus from updates, but what do you expect? I doubt anyone reads this, think only two of the people even on this list even post anymore, and I've fallen out of touch either through lack of communication, or just saying the most absolutely horrid thing while someone is experiencing a crisis, and not knowing how to go back to talk ( Read more... )

So ya, bored again, can't sleep, and fighting another bout of depression. So figured I'd whine some in here for the like two people that read it...(its funny, I never usually have more than two people that ever look at this...but I think its always different people. Interesting ( Read more... )

So its yet been another decent amount of time since I last updated, I'm bored and can't sleep and am thinking far too much, so this is a necessary distraction at this point ( Read more... )