spent the day in a 6 hr. job interview, went to my parents' house to watch my mother cry and tried my best to be of some small comfort. we're all starting over. got home to nick, his basketball game and his too loud music. the consistency of which is beginning to provide some small comfort. he passed me the pipe and i made a drink. my favorite past ( Read more... )

i got a bad case of the sads last night. i knew that it was imminent, what with being in a living situation where i hardly know the people and i hardly feel comfortable. it all started when nick crawled in to bed with me and, of course, we fucked, same as always only this time we stopped. and we talked and we agreed that all of this fucking is ( Read more... )

every night, i'm surrounded by jealous, competitive boys and it's so hard to decide which one to choose. until last night. we made love and i cried.

i drink so much that i don't remember half of my life. it sucks. i really need a job.

my entire body itches like whoa. i'm moving in with this girl kerry and her best friend is the male version of me. and i mean that in the worst way possible. so i anticipate lots of great sex and arguing.

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so i just got out of jail........again. i made the decision to never do drugs again bc of those events which manifested as felony charges that i do not remember. and bc of that perfect boy whose life i caused chaos in and lost along the way.

have you seen the movie mean girls? it's amazing and provides the only semi-accurate view of high school i've ever seen. anyways, the movie has such a happy, ideal ending where something terribly tragic happens, causing all of the girls to rethink their outlook and change for the better. but what if nothing tragic ever happened. what if they went ( Read more... )

so mr. perfect is now my boyfriend. oh, how lucky can one girl be. i should start playing the lottery or something cus i bet i would win. i just keep hitting the jackpot.

so i went on a date with my soulmate last night. he is unimaginably rich, nice, gentlemanly and did i mention devastatingly handsome? ahhh, perfect.