Falling in love seems to easy and delightful on tv, and in books and movies. Who got the idea that that's what love is like? Who first wondered if they could capitalize on unrealistic dreams?

I will hate you a little more every day I am stuck in this hell hole getting yelled at about inane things. Today it was that I didn't fold the towels correctly.

My emotions are not toys for you to mess with or a book for you to analyze. If I get upset at a slighted comment or I get offended at an unfair remark, that is my business and not yours. I may have a short fuse, but at least I am not emotionless, at least I know how to love and I know what makes me tick.

Can I make the dreams stop? Can I make the bills stop coming? Can I erase the memories?

Can I be a whole, happy, and functioning person once more?

Things that are never going to happen #1: Mike is not going to move to Minnesota, propose to me, and give me babies. I just need to get that through my head. Never gonna happen.

i HATE BEING BACK WHERE I WAS A YEAR AGO. IT'S LIKE NOTHING HAS CHANGED. IT'S AS IF AN ENTIRE YEAR PAST AND MY LIFE HAS GONE NOWHERE, HAS NOT DEVELOPED AT ALL ( Read more... )

It's amazing to me that every day I get a little stronger and a little more used to not having a significant other to turn to. I guess it's time to turn to myself.

I love my friends to death but if any more of them get married, get engaged, have babies, get pregnant, or buy houses with their s.o.'s... I am seriously going to have a freaking panic attack of hyperventilation.

I can't help but think of all the things we will never again do together ( Read more... )

I hate you for making me love you, for making me want to spend my life with you, and then ripping it away like duct tape over an open wound.