I don't know how to get people to accept me for me. Like, even my friends are like "well... you could change this, or you could change that." But then I realize that everyone does that, including me. Everyone wants to change something about the people around them. I think the trick is to move past that and deal with the experience of that ( Read more... )

FUCKING A. I JUST WANT TO BE GODDAMN FUCKING FRIENDS. I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING SLEEP WITH YOU. UGGGGGH.

So goddamn annoyed. Why can't I try to reconnect with old friends without them thinking that I am a huge fucking slut? Yeah, you know what I want, to sleep with everything with a penis. Yup, that sounds about right. I don't just need conversation ( Read more... )

I haven't written in my livejournal for a while because it's mostly useless and no one reads it. Right now I am going to use that to my advantage bc I need to get my thoughts down and out there without anyone seeing them ( Read more... )

Sometimes a guy hugs you like he can never let go, and when he pulls away it's just enough to speak to you, but not far enough away to lose intimacy. And you're close enough to kiss, and drunk enough to think it might be a good idea, but you're smart enough not to. And the world goes on and the moment has passed. But you replay it in your head, ( Read more... )

There is so much anger and hate and sadness and pain inside of me. I  barely make it from day to day. Barely a day goes by that I don't cry. Barely a week goes by that I don't think that maybe everyone would be better off without me around ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night that Mike and I got married but after the ceremony and before the pictures were taken or the reception had started he changed into shorts and a t-shirt and was playing games in the arcade. I was infuriated. So, I guess angry dreams are better than the sad and longing dreams. So that's a good thing ( Read more... )

I was really thinking today about Katie and Alex and how they started dating. I wasn't there but I've been told the story so many times. Eric, Katie, and Liza were all at Katie and Liza's apartment. Katie was obsessing over how much she liked and wanted to date Alex but she wouldn't do anything about it. Finally, Eric got fed up hearing about it ( ( Read more... )

As a 22-year-old woman who is not unpretty and has a lot to offer, it occurs to me that I have the opportunity to be selective. This list will exist to remind me what I want in a man and that nothing good will ever come of settling. (That's right, Mike, I was settling for you anyway. So fuck you ( Read more... )

In a fair world, you'd make the big gesture. You would move to Minnesota and ask me to be with you and everything would be alright. In a fair world I wouldn't have to feel like this every single morning I wake up and every single night when I go to bed ( Read more... )

I am not doing nearly as well as I thought I was.