Where to start. I broke up with Luke about three months ago. I should have done it awhile ago. It wasn't meant to be, he wasn't the right man for me. I loved him in some way, but not like a lover. I met someone, sadly before the relationship I was in was over. But this man is what I've been looking for for so long. The sex is like...the best ever. ( Read more... )

work work work work work.

i can't wait until tuesday, now work for like 6 days. i don't konw, i might work one day while i'm in charlotte. i can't wait to get down there. it better be warmer then it is up here. the water on the trees from when it rained is frozen. FROZEN

i hate the north

i've started working out every morning, and i'm on a constant diet (partially thanks to the adderal i'm now prescribed). I just want a better body. i've had three people including my mother tell me i've gained weight and everyone says it looks good but i don't like it. i just want to be able to fit into my zeros again, and i will by this summer. ( Read more... )

looking for a new job...thinking about moving back to charlotte. i miss home

i'm drunk and i'm realizing i have to upgrade my skills. i'm looking at my long, healthy nails as i type and it becomes clear that I am meant for a very long battle, but if i preserver i'll reach what I want, just not the way i wanted.

my favorite color used to be orange. now it's pink. i used to wear baggy jeans to cover up my legs, now i want them tight to show it all off. i wish i could have stayed the way i was a few years ago. every so often something happens that makes me "grow up" and i hate it. i'm a lot more hard, a lot less trusting. a lot more fearful. `i wish i didn't ( Read more... )

i'm coming to charlotte on sunday. and i'm bringing the new boy. this should be interesting

and i'm happy again. i realize i haven't posted anything about my life in awhile.

let's see. i'm living in delaware right now, with my father. i have a new boyfriend, his name is luke. i'm still dancing, but now in philly. and...oh yeah i enrolled at university of phoenix and i start on the 29th. that's it for now.

i haven't been this depressed in a very long time.

looking at pictures of my nephew makes me smile


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