i get to see my love tomorow:):) after work im headin to the saskatoon to see her do shoppin and see my buddues. and TIM is comming down from calgary just to hang out with us cuz he cant come at christmas. i miss her, alot. i had such a fucking SHITY ass night........ i went out to jareds to hang out with him and ryan and all was good until i drove ( Read more... )

lack of colour? more like lack of composure. i cant go a day without making myself tear up or cry. because of my jealousy my worrie and my hate for people and myself ( Read more... )

so my family FINALLy got a new computer. bout f'n time ( Read more... )

it feels like im falling away from reality. it seems like it is easy to cope with the really hard things on the out side. but inside it feels like im numb to everything except for the love shaunna gives me. my thoughts have been dark with suicide and death constantly when i cant do something or i feel really stupid for the way i act. but maby this ( Read more... )

Hi, im scott. i like to say stupid shit and make people feel terrible. ypu THATS WATIIIIIII DOOOOO!!!!! so once again ive pissed off te only person who cares, so yea.... same old for me. making her feel like shit.

last night i watched "whats eating Gilbert Grape" its a good sad movie

i hate myself when im making people fee like a pile of mucas shit. another shity day at work ended with me crying because im probably not going to see shaunna tonight..... but anyway i have to be up at 5:30 in the morning...so im going to hug oofie and weep until i fall asleep.

u cant help but think of me when u isten to this ( Read more... )

good bye everything i thought was wonderful. scott, you have fucked up beyoned repair. and even if it is, no one will care if you tried. fuck me fucl me fucle me fuck me. i hate my seelf. promise. .moneen. thankk you. fuck it all fuck this fucke me. i hope i end up shot and fucking burned tomorrow, and i swear to FUCKIHNG GOD I HOPE EVERYONE ( Read more... )

im listning to Dallas Green. i havent for such a long time. i feel so lonley right now. i havent seen my girlfriend in a million years. this is tearing me up inside, i need her arms and eyes. i need to know if im still loved:(

what am i going to do now.sure i may be a litte angry and jealouse. but i dont know what to do now. ie become so atatched to shaunna i dont know who to go to with anything deep like i coud talk to her about. im lost and scared and have been hoding oof asking him why. and when i looked at him all i could see was myself. im not meaning for tis to ( Read more... )