I'm 25 years old. That's pretty old. A quarter of a century. I tell myself, "I'm not a kid anymore. It's time to grow up." Yet in times of great emotional strain I can't help but feel small again ( Read more... )

I've started reading the Song of Fire and Ice books. So far, A Game of Thrones proves to be an intriguing book. Better than I expected. Not one of those books that relies on obscure words to convey it's images, but something that conveys itself with the simplest of words used in the right combination and sequence. It's a beautiful thing ( Read more... )

When prompted with the question, "Do you feel like you deserve a better life?" I responded, "I don't know." Do I? I don't know. I've always had this need to somehow justify everything good or bad that happens to me. Not to other people. Just to myself ( Read more... )

Here we go. Been a while. As individuals my friends are severely flawed. Unable to comprehend the behavior of others because they aren't willing to really analyze and judge themselves as intensely as they do the people around them. Doing that, of course, may create self-doubt and possibly a lack of confidence, but I do believe that if it is coupled ( Read more... )

Life is the same as always and it always will be.

Things I do not miss about living with a girl: Strands of hair that turn up everywhere even weeks after she's moved out. That old, heated smell of perfurme that lingers on every piece of furniture she's laid on. Her smoking all my cigarettes(partially my fault because I do not have the willpower to refuse a girl. damn me). Her using my computer ( Read more... )

Every day at around 4-8pm I start drinking. Sometimes rum or vodka. Sometimes just plain, cheap beer. Well, even the rum and vodka I buy are usually cheap. It's been like that these past few months. I wouldn't say I'm an alcoholic. I just have nothing better to do ( Read more... )

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I made a promise to myself today that I'd start making drastic changes in my lifestyle. It begins with my eating habits and ends with my social behavior ( Read more... )

Drinking again last night. Good fun. Didn't go overboard this time ( Read more... )