Our vacation was so so. The weather was bad most of the time. It was probably a sign. We had our moments though. Yahtzee and sparkling wine was a lot of fun ( Read more... )

So, here we go again. My stomach is in knots. I am so scared. I don't want to go through this. I want my family together. I want my wife to work with me on our marriage. I wish that she felt the same way. We are going to take each other away from our son. Our son is going to really be hurt by this. I think is well being is going to be hurt ( Read more... )

Today was my sixth anniversary. Wifey and I went to Okada for dinner. She finally said that she still felt like she did last year. She still wanted out of the marriage. So now onto our separation and the eventual divorce. I am of course, sadden and disappointed by all this. I never wanted to be divorced. But I can't fight it anymore.

I was looking back at my old emails. I have to say that I really was messed up. I think I still am at times. Nothing really has changed much in the last year. Everything has stayed the same. Wifey has made no new imporvements, for a the lack of a better word, to work on our marriage. Some times I see a glimer but it only last for a moment. I ( Read more... )

The more I look, the more I see that our marriage probably will never really recover. Wifey was complaining today as to how she has none of her friends to out with. She was feeling bored it seems. I offered some suggestions, only to get my head bit off. She is never one to apologize to me. It really bugs me when she does that. I then offered ( Read more... )

I hear so many voices in my head about what to do. I know that it is my decision in the end. I keep seeing signs that things are progressing. Maybe a little slow at times. I know most men would have been out of it by now. Me, I am gluton for a punishment I guess. I want to keep fighting until I have nothing left to fight for. My gutt tells me ( Read more... )

But why try anymore. I am left feeling every night that my wife really doesn't care for me the way that a husband should. No sex, no kissing, no holding hands. Pretty much anything physical. I have asked her about baby plan. Wife looks like she just wants to run marathons for the reast of my. I look at my self in the mirror and just wonder why.

Sigh. Fathers Day was like any other day. I was kind of disappointed that I did not even get card from wifey. She pretty much claims the stress of our son's up coming surgery. I kind of knew that she wouldn't get me anything anyways. It is just the way she always puts me last on her list of priorities. Now, not to say that she never does ( Read more... )

Our son is having his tonsils taken out on Monday morning. We are both glad yet saddened that he is going to have such a surgery. We both think that it is good that the surgery is happening now rather than later. This will give him the whole summer still to enjoy ( Read more... )

I have had this deamon inside of me for a very long time. I can't say as to how or why it became this way. I don't know how I lost trust in people. It has affected my present life. My marriage has been through hell the last year. Right now I do not feel very close to my wife at all. Our trust was broken many moons ago. I know that I am the ( Read more... )