I finished my internship. Waking up everyday at 5:30 and driving 40 minutes to the school was grueling. I finally learned that creating lesson plans for the next day at 2am doesn’t work. 4 hour naps in the afternoon are not good for the body. Also, carpooling with some of the best guys i’ve never met. We all loved it, but couldn’t wait for it to ( Read more... )

Today my brain is filled with incomplete thoughts; like a 2nd grader attempting to write a story...i start, but the plot quickly changes. Its a frustrating feeling that is most likely a direct consequence of last nights beer and this mornings 2 day old coffee - neither was good for me, but both made me feel so much better. The following ( Read more... )

It was a summer saturated with changes. My attempts at salvaging a soured relationship failed miserably as expected. I moved into a new apartment that doesn't quite feel like mine yet. I crashed my car and bought a new one in the same day. 19 credit hours will soon fill my life to the top, leaving little room for anything else. Change is hard ( Read more... )

Your firmiliar, yet almost forgotten, ringtone peirced through the music inside my car. I looked down at the phone with disbelief. I wanted so badly to pick up and beg for you to come to your senses. But, instead i clinched onto the steering wheel, turned up the volume on the radio, and stared straight ahead into traffic. I thought i'd be ready ( Read more... )

Love is such a drug. Its addictive. So when love runs out, withdrawal sets in. Its a horrible, gut wrenching feeling that leaves you wet with tears and numb on the inside. After the initial shock, there is the task of moving forward. Some days are easy, other days are difficult. Sometimes things are flowing smoothly and all of the sudden it ( Read more... )

I expect you to approach our relationship cautiously like you would a horse; you must stroke and pet gently until all trust is gained. Sweet text messages, emails, voice messages, and notes are greatly appreciated and valued. Kisses and hugs should never be underestimated. Never hesitate to use the power of touch to say things for which there ( Read more... )

Sometimes we have to learn things the hard way. Part of life is feeling the burning pain of learning. I would not wish such a feeling upon my worst enemy. I'm confident that i'll come out of this happy and relieved. For now, i'm in repair; attempting to discover aspects of myself and others that i was unable to see before. Its like getting your ( Read more... )

My parents taught me to fight. I slam doors, scream loudly, curse and spit. Someday i hope to control my emotions and have the ability to convey my frustrations with complex vocabulary words like the characters on Dawsons Creek. However, until then, i will always abrubtly end an argument by slamming a door behind me and then regret not saying ( Read more... )

It's been almost a whole year since i've posted an entry, but today i need to vent. It was a little over a year ago that i fell in love with the most wonderful guy. We've had our ups and downs; always worked through the hard stuff and enjoyed the rest. I've learned so much from him, and i hope that he has learned something from me. The past ( Read more... )

As i get older, i gradually learn to find the right ways the balance everything. Over the past few weeks, most everything in my life has intensified. Summer has ended, and Fall 2006 at Florida State has begun despite my prayers that i was just having a bad dream. My relationship went from "doomed" to stable and serious, which ironically, ( Read more... )