well i'm pretty bored right now...axel's picking me up soon. this might be my last weekend with him, if he gets his job. i mean if he does i'll be very happy for him bc it will be good for him, but at the same time i'm not sure i'm ready to say goodbye. even if he does stay another week i wont be ready. it scares me that by next week i'll go back ( Read more... )

so its finally 2006, and despite the fact i went to bed at 3 last night, i couldnt sleep past 10 for some reason this morning. i'm not too tired but later tonight i will be. the stupid dog is barking, i keep letting her out bc shes barking like she has to pee, but then she just goes and picks up last nights fireworks which are still on the lawn and ( Read more... )

well another week has come and gone...for me, its only been work and school. that's slightly depressing. what's worse, i am very stressed out lately, just about everything. esp college stuff...i know i will get it done eventually, it's just getting there that's the problem. and when i am stressed, i'll admit it, i either cry, or act like a bitch. ( Read more... )

i saw many penises today...and no i'm not a whore :) good night

oh my goodness...i feel so freaking anxious right now its ridiculous. i woke up this morning and couldnt go back to sleep because the first thing i thought was: shit i have to play soccer today and it is an important game. so yah its 2:15 and i am starting to get even more nervous. like i am trying to write my paper and i was getting fidgety so i ( Read more... )

well i havent written in like forever...its been a perpetual whirlwind ever since school started. work, school, college, soccer, clubs and other shit, it makes me a busy girl with little free time and even less sleep. which really sux. i can deal with stress well but theres only so much i, or any person can take. im hoping things will calm down ( Read more... )

haha i'm becoming quite the live journal addict. mostly for lack of things to do. well i have plenty to do i suppose, but not much i WANT to be doing. although i have to say i am sad i decided not to go to warped tour. i wish i could just bite the bullet and say fuck it, (mostly fuck soccer) for once. but i can't bring myself to. and bc of that i'm ( Read more... )

i suppose i will update. not that i have anything interesting to say, or anything i want the entire world wide web to be able to read. i'm pretty much just hanging out at my house, thinking. thinking of whatever. mostly things i need to get out of the way before september. and things i dont necessarily want out of the way...layla is laying next to ( Read more... )

day 4 is over. i am all done tomorrow. my feet have all sorts of nice things growing on them now, mainly, blisters. i have a few bruises though...awesome. well i'm kinda feeling sorry for myself right now i guess. i'm not sure why, well i do know why but i don't know. i mean i really can't complain, things that are going on with me aren't bad. i ( Read more... )

well...i've just survived through my first day of hell camp. my legs are on fire, i have a throbbing headache, and my face is all sunburnt. tomorrow i have a multiple mile run awaiting me...i think i'm going to die. only 4 more days...i also just finished up my paper for AP. its not my best work, but i think its decent. i hope she actually gets it ( Read more... )