i dont know why im on here. just bored at school. suppose to be writing my senior project research paper, its only 3 more paragraphs but im just noti n the mood. i cant get into writing about subjects forced on me. id much rather write about a band or a show or sumthing i like to talk about not fucking business and skills. i sound ignorgant. but im ( Read more... )

so i havent been on this shit in a long fucking time. yea. anyhow i deleted that fucking pathetic piece of shit called a myspace which i was never on. i feel kinda bad cause i didnt even tell anyone and i didnt get my old friends emails or anything. but i guess if its that important i could find em. oh well. so yea isnt semester is almost over. im ( Read more... )

i cry myself to sleep. lately ive been so alone!!!! and ive been at home. so i just cry. its a horrible thing. i just want my anthony back. i know all this feel horrbile. all the guilt all the shame. but i know he is sorry. we werent togther but it just hurt. to know that we were pretty much togther. i wonder if he even told her that we were... ( Read more... )

so i have all the trust. i did until last night... is that right?? maybe i was just think to hard. did i scare myself. did i make up these things in my head. or did i put the pieces togther. im weirded out. im scred. im bored. i was up till like 3:30.. woke up at 6... on and of till 7:30... need sleep!

i dont really have enimies... i just dont care to associate with certain people. Since i left highschool ive realized ive been doing a lot of "growing up"... a lot of thinking. and its so nice. i think sum of my friend are drifting... but its for the wrong reasons. your not really my friend then. there are a lot of gurls i dislike. for valid ( Read more... )

OK SO MY SPRING BREAK WAS THE SHIT!!! I HAD A LOT OF FUN. WEEKEND WAS A BIT ROCKY BUTI DIDNT LET IT GET TO ME. I GOT TO SEE LIZ AND I AM SO HAPPY. I REALLY MISSED HER. TUESDAY UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!!!! IT WAS AWESOME. ALTHO I WAS SICK AND STUFF EVERYONE MAD SURE I HAD A GREAT TIME. ME & ANTHONY GOT CLOSE AND IT WAS REAL CUTE HAHA AND FUN. IM GLAD WE ( Read more... )

leaves me all fucking emo & stupid! IHAT EFEELING LIKE THIS. I WANA FIND A NICE GUY... ONE TO HODL MY HAND... KISS ME ON THE CHEEK... MAKE ME LAUGH & SMILE... SUMONE LIKE ME... I NEED A SOULMATE HAHAH! EVERY GUY IVE HAD INTENSE FEELINGS FOR SUM HOW DIDNT WORK OUT. WHEN I THINK ITS GOING GOOD... WHEN IVE CONFESSED MY FEELINGS... AND THEY CONFESS ( Read more... )

thoughts in my head today. its the one thing i hate about being home alone... doing nothing. i think entirly to much. about lost friends... and all that kind astuff. makes me all sad. last ngiht was a lot of fun. just chillen with david,ish, and steph. and last night also made me realize a lot of things about people. why do i care so much about ( Read more... )

yea so this morning i got up super early.. i dunno why. but i did sum comp work then sat around and just looked outside. it was kool. but then out fo no where it got all ugly. oh well. um life is on the upside for the most part. no ones life is perfect. and ill just say mines a lot less than. i wanna do sumthing fun today... well i am. Oc tongiht ( Read more... )

So ya its been long...i dont use this much anymore... ive become enfatuated ( or how ever you spell that, not like anyone reads this).. with myspace haha. Yes! and a lot has changed from how i feel about anthony... to school which is better... to friend which im starting to feel diffrent about a slect few, and really misses the ones who ean the ( Read more... )