i need him so bad right now. it's not even that i want him. but he did this to me and it hurts so bad! i hate him with all my heart. and i can't even talk to my mom about it. and i want her! and something happened and i don't know what it is and i'm so scared. everything is just falling apart and i need someone ( Read more... )

um today was alright. i'm off grounding *smiles* me and ivan were talking and i think he wants to fuck me. he said... quote " Well I'll tell you now I don't want a girlfriend but if you want to chill with me then it's iight and whatever happens, happens" " I mean don't get me wrong I do like you. And if we ever messed around I wouldn't mess with ( Read more... )

Okay so I've been talking to this guy Steve. Who seems like a total sweetheart. Kate thought he was gay. He's funny, can play guitar, really cute, and nice. I mean how much better could it get? And the only fault that he has is that he lives in New York. Which is pretty damn far away! He doesn't smoke-anything. And rarely drinks. Which is probably ( Read more... )

mmk. I've felt so bitchy today. and I don't even know why. I mean i totally flipped on this guy Will on my bus that was just messing with me and afterwards I felt so bad. thank god my neighbor's sister just gave me a cigarette! i feel a little better now. can't wait until saturday I get to see my mommy, my lovely girlfriend, and my babydoll. well ( Read more... )

People constantly ask me if I was ever in love. I don't know how to answer... David was pretty much the closest thing to love I've ever felt. What is love anyway? Is it caring for a certain person no matter what they've done, or how much they hurt you? When I think of love, I think of him. Which I think is wrong... he didn't love me. As much as he ( Read more... )

Alright here it goes ( Read more... )

Soooooo happy! i just got done talking to my dadddy. and he said that sam and lexi can sleep over tomorrow. and that friday during the day *what ever time patty wants to drive me* i can go down to morrisville to see my mommmy. and stay until which ever day i want to leave. woah this is a wonderful miracle. i can't wait to tell my mommy. i have to ( Read more... )

Alright well i am truely confused ( Read more... )

yeah so... i don't even know everythings so weird. i got so effing shy today in front of this guy and i don't even know why. i mean i can be shy but i'm usually not and i don't know what was wrong with me. like i didn't even say one word to him and he's so effing sexy! yeah so i figured it out- no more friends with benefits. i want a relationship. ( Read more... )

I don't care anymore. About anything- school friends guys- nothing ( Read more... )