I'm fucking pissy.
and all i want to do it bitch and someone.
and i want to go to bed but i fucking can't.

FUUUCK.

..::I WANT TO GO HOME::..

i hate being the one that everyone runs to when they're upset but when i need 
a shoulder to cry on there isn't one to be found. i would move the world for my friends. i'm there for them at 3 in the morning when they're upset but when i need something i don't know who to call i'll just star at the phone as i cry cause when i try to get a hold of ( Read more... )

105
everyone's been commenting about my weight
i didn't even do anything this time
i just havent been hungry

don't worry.

i don't know where to begin.
or where i'll end.

i really miss you.
both of you.
you were both always there for me.
one in love, one in friendship.
what happened.
i understand that things change but how the hell
does shit suddenly change so fast?
i mean it felt like one day you're supporting me
and the next you're with her and then you hate me?
and now she ( Read more... )

 106...again...still.

it's over.
and a new one began.
but you're stil not here.
whatever.

it's offical.
:]
i'm happy.

 i don't know where to start.
to begin.
to end.

i thought i'd be okay by now. 
it's been almost a year since i found out about the divorce,
and yet i'm still hurting.
i thought it would be a clean, quick divorce.
but it's turned in to one of those messy one.
this year fucking sucked.
divorce, 2 funerals in one month.
2 accidents in one month.
fuck it
fuck 2007 ( Read more... )

 Isn't it wierd when you find a song and it's exactly liek your life.
or at least it describes a feeling so well? it maybe the works song every
or it may be sung by a band that you hate but you can relate to it so well?

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed ( Read more... )

i used to be so strong. or at least i felt like i was.
i coudl hold in my feelings, the emotions of hurt, loss, betrayl and now what?
i'm lost. i've becoem so fucking weak it's not even funny. i'm not stong anymore.
i can't hide it.

what happened?

what possibly overcame me andi became this person who i dont even know anymore.
i'm a wreck.. a fucking ( Read more... )

LOOK AT ME!

DAMNIT