=]

I'm not just for sex.
I'm better than that.

<3Zach

So I spent 2 hours, 11 minutes, and 45 seconds on the phone with the most amazing boy last night.
He made me realize some things about Cameron that I wasn't willing to face on my own.
He amazes me.

I love him.<3

This feeling, its weird.
I'm all fucked up.

He has a girlfriend who he likes but doesn't love?
I'm single and completely in love with him.
And I guess he loves me.

I believe him.
I trust him 100%
But I'm still scared of being hurt.

But he's the first guy since Cameron that has made me feel like I'm worth something.
Like I matter.
I honestly don't believe he' ( Read more... )

 So I'm in love.

It's been a while.
A long while.
But I'm finally happy.

Tonight should be mad fun =]

Going home
Picking up Amanda
Chores + Cleaning my jeep
Picking up Zach Lee! =] in Medway
Bringing him to Milford to jack his report card =P
Bringing him back to work
PARK!!! Most deff =] =] =]
Hanging out with Kevin til about 8:30 ish
Picking up Zach at work
Going to Toys R Us to see my mom
Then sleeping over my aunts house with ( Read more... )

 I’m scared.  I’m scared that I’m not going to be okay.  That maybe it’s not going to
work out in the end.  Maybe that’s giving up hope but maybe it’s thinking logically. 
I’ve had too much time alone to think about it.  But it’s like I’ve had this time because
I actually give a fuck about people.  I have compassion. 
Apparently, I’m the only one. 
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Peter told Tim about Zach.

I don't think I'm mad, just hurt.
It's weird. =/
Especially since it's Tim that has the right to be hurt.
Hmm.

Tim's gonna call me tonight though and hopefully we can fix it.
We both realized today that neither of us know why we broke up.
He's silly.

 Friday- Got outta school at 12:30, went and picked up amanda and then did my chores. Picked up Zach at like 2. Well a little after since we went to his house in Millis when he was definitly at his house in MIlford and didn't tell us hahaha. So we got him and then I dropped off Amanda with Mike and me and zach went to my aunts house. we hung out ( Read more... )

He  broke up with me.

Having some issues in the guy department.
Keep this a secret, k?

Tim- I like him, alot. I like being his girlfriend. He's nice. But alot of the time it just doesn't even feel like we're in a relationship. Sometimes I even forget I have a boyfriend. I know, awful. But we barely talk and practically never hang out. It's pretty ghey. So when I don't see ( Read more... )