I have a new journal.
Add that one because I don't think i'll be posting in this one at all.

http://kumbha-rashi.livejournal.com/

so today i got to take an ever so exciting trip to the gynocologist. yeah, first time there was fun. most awkward time of my life, actually. i have this cute little italian lady having a casual conversation with me and my legs are straddled open and her fingers are up my vagina. so so so weird. i don't want to go back, ever. Haha. but she gave me ( Read more... )

ugh. i'm very sad. this winter is about to be the worst ever. first of all, i hate school and i'm just so fucking sick of it and i'm probably going to fail two of my classes. i really can't lose those credits either. second, i hate the weather. i get so fucking sad because Theres snow everywhere, and my feet are always soaked. and the worst thing ( Read more... )

ugh. its so frustrating having to bottle up my feelings sometimes. the only words i want to say to him are, "i love you." but i'm such a fucking coward. i'm terrified that its going to scare him away, but part of me really thinks he might say it back. oh, it would be so good to hear those words leave his lips. i don't know which is harder on me: ( Read more... )

so i told myself i'd never date a girl again, but when a girl I've had a crush on for 3 years asks me on a date, of course i'm going to say yes. but i can see this going wrong cuz i'm terribly awkward. whatev.

The only words i remember in my dream last night was ( Read more... )

everyone i have gotten close to in the last year and a half, those people don't mean shit to me anymore. if i never had to see any of them for the rest of my life, that'd be fucking grand! being attached to people is not healthy at all. I don't regret knowing these people or getting close to them. they each have taught me things that i wouldn't ( Read more... )

i'm moving to canada the day after tomorrow. that is if John McCain is elected president, of course. I've been looking for a reason to get out of this place, and i think thats reason enough to leave. ha, i wish i could leave. 7 more months of school and i'm outta here!

its time to start the healing process. time to focus on being more responsible and bettering myself. no hard feelings anymore. i am going to take responsibility for my actions and do my best to fix things, but its going to be hard. life is a fucked up test of character, but you have to stand up for yourself and what you believe in. I've learned so ( Read more... )

i'm the one that gets shit for having guys that are friends, while You're going through girlfriends and gallavanting around town with someone you KNOW did something very wrong to you. i'm just going to take this weekend to clear my thoughts and just see what happens when i get home. i never thought in a million years you'd say those words to me ( Read more... )