GAH I'm such an idiot when i think
of what i've said to you
and how i put everything
and i meant every word of it but
i feel stupid for even saying it
dont tell me you care.
it's a lie

mmm so much has happen
and i'm weak from it

when i come here it's beautiful.
the paints not pealing.
the kids aren't crying.
it's mine.
and i have it.
whole.
no pieces left over.
no rethinking a thing.
i can sit here and write.
i love it.

i love not getting on livejournal
for weeks at a time then randomly
getting on it =]

today a girl testified* in youth group ( Read more... )

i hate feeling unimportant.

so you know that saying ( Read more... )

alrighty..so i've come to realize why girls act the way they do ( Read more... )

honestly i look at you and laugh
your not as happy as you say you are
your not as great as you think you are.
you have nothing to give anyone
for the simple fact that you are nothing.
but at the same time..
i can't help but envy you
i can't help but want what you use to have.
is that wrong of me?

honestly I'd have to say that i'm happy ( Read more... )