Episode VIII: The Complete and Absolute Turn of Fortune

[x_boyfriend]

And for the first time - in a long time - I can honestly say, I’m okay.

It’s been almost two weeks since I’ve written anything down, and for the purposes of this journal, that’s probably a good thing. I guess, in more ways than one, writing has succeeded in proving itself to be effective therapy. And for once, I can say without malice - being

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[big_boner]

same here pare....SAME HERE.

[x_boyfriend]

glenn, you gotta help me paint my room man...

[big_boner]

i will pare...i will.

[grrl_gamer]

[grrl_gamer]

but yeah... the drama has to end sometime indeed. ._.

[x_boyfriend]

just read your last entry, it's good your still writing. was kind of worried you were gonna shut your journal down for good. haha ;), aabangan ko yung seventeen special appearance mo. yay.

[grrl_gamer]

nyee. hahaha. wish me luck! i hope i'll look cute or maybe even pretty! kakahiya if i look ugly! ;_;

[bullfunkee]

i'm glad to finally hear (or read) that you're okay. :) ika nga nung otter, that's more like it. hehehe.

pagod na ako makipag-away.
ako din.

[x_boyfriend]

well, i could just jump to absurdity. haha.

[8footwookie]

I certainly relate. People say things get better. I think things get easier more than they get better. In a way I envy you. It is these times when you get to know yourself, and you find out what kind of person you really are.

I thank you for sharing your honest and beautiful posts.

[x_boyfriend]

I think things get easier more than they get better.

Powerful point. I admit, it set me back. Probably, I am confusing easier with better. Maybe there was never really and real progress, and I've resorted to only masking the pain really well. But you're right, as corny as it sounds, if there's anything I've gotten out of this fuck of a mess... it's a little more about myself.

Btw, I always wanted to know... you're pinoy, but you live in the states? I was never quite sure...

[8footwookie]

I'm sorry. I didn't mean that you might be confusing easy with better. I was just recalling that when I was in the same type of situation, there were points when I would not believe that things could get better. However, I could believe that things could get easier, which was often my only chink of light.
And I might also say that getting a little more about yourself is a powerful thing.

I'm am 1/4. My grandmother was Filipino, and my grandfather was an Austrian-born (now Croatia) American immigrant living in the Philippines. My dad was born in Quezon City. Because of my grandfather, Dad was born a US citizen, and moved to the States when he was 16. He hasn't been back since. I was there a couple years ago, but most of my family on my dad's side now live around here, the San Francisco Bay Area.
If there is anything else you'd like to know, please feel free to ask. Or e-mail me. You can find my address is on my info page.

[x_boyfriend]

wow. more complicated than i thought. from your entries alone it didn't seem like you were an american, i guess there's still some filipino sensibility in you. or maybe i've just been reading too much.