well, it finally happened, mandi and I broke up tonight. I saw it coming for a while and now it has finally happened. it's funny though because it was a mutual thing. for the first time in a while her and I were on the same page. we both feel like a weight has been lifted off our shoulders and it has actually brought us closer. we are both glad we ( Read more... )

I'm going to be home tomorrow..... it feels so weird. hmmm *shrugs*

*sings in absolutly horrible voice* HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR KIIIM, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIM!!!!!!

*sigh* I started smoking again. it has been quite a stressfull past two weeks, but ah well, I'll quit again when things feel better.

I can only have so many rings around my heart before it becomes bigger them i am.

I am leaning toward leaving for San Fransisco to live in mid april instead of next fall. I guess I just feel that there is nothing keeping me here anymore. So yay for only having four and a half more months in Cincinnasty. I can't say I am completely excited about this, a part of me wishes I had a reason to stay, but I can't obsess over what is ( Read more... )

*heavy sigh and an eye twitch* well I had this monstrous entry typed out discussing quantum physics ,relativity and how there is a theory that ACTUALLY puts the two together in ONE equation which could answer questions like where the earth came from and why things happen the way they do. it also dabbles into the possibility of 6 dimensions, other ( Read more... )

Hey. I don't know how to describe today so I'll just say what it consisted of. first I got my hair cut and then came home to an empty house, it was nice. I got online and opened AIM and like always I sit and stare at the screen, too scared to IM anyone. I hope people don't think I don't like talking to them, it's just I'm scared that they don't ( Read more... )

I wanted to write something before I left, but I had no idea what. So I found this thing I wrote a little while back about a dream I had ( Read more... )

walking into my dark room I stumble over scattered clothes and useless parts of my life that has seem to lost all meaning. Peeling off my black fishnet shirt I fall to my bed absolutely drained. as I look over to my wall where my photos have fallen I sigh at the sight of a painting of blood on my wall and I want to finish it. I run my hands over my ( Read more... )