it's not getting any better.
i wish i could tell you.

xxxx

i don't know what's inside your head, but hey! what's new. inside mine is your offer. just swirling around like its the only thing i have to think about. i may actually take you up on it. i just might ( Read more... )

I wished with all my heart this would happen. Now it's happening and all I can do is cry and wish I had the power in me to stop it.
You don't want to see me because you know it'll crush you, and I hope more than anything it does because then I'd at least be in with a chance of not losing you for good.

xxx

2 years and all it comes down to is an email telling me you had good times but really, you need to be on your own. not even a phonecall, an email.

happy fucking anniversary, ally. i hope you choke and fucking die.

i feel sick because i wish more than anything i was away. i feel sick because all i want is perfection. i feel sick because all i have is a massive, massive mess.

saturday? i wouldn't take it back in a second, i just want you to not make this so hard.

x

Recently it's been about ( Read more... )

part of me wishes that I was still in 5th year at school, riddled with glandular fever just so I could stay home in my wee cacoon and watch donnie darko every day. then i wouldn't need to care anymore.

xxxx

Yesterday I could have strangled you with rage. Today kind of puts things in perspective and I know I won't be able to face the next week or so without you. I'm so scared, and I know you are too but it'll be okay, I promise ( Read more... )

2008 was destined for big things. Instead it's all about broken promises and taking things slowly.

it'll be hard but i'm pretty sure it'll be fucking worth it. If not, there's always next year.

xxxx

I think for the first time in my life, I was sad leaving a year behind. Good things happened last night, and it was spent in the company of the best people. Hopefully, that's a good sign.

Happy New Year though.

I love you.

xxxxx