Had a huge fight with Dad today.

Seems like that's all we ever do.

I'm sick of it.

I need to get out of here.

I have 2 more days till I can go be with my Mom for a while.

I need it.

I need her.

Now, I don't think I'll be able to go out tomorrow with my boifriend because of some of the stuff that was said tonite.

I don't know what to do anymore.

It ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I've wrote in here.

I don't really know why I don't write in here anymore. Hmm. Maybe I'll try to get it back on track.

You know, now that I think about it. Maybe I don't update as much because I actually have a life now. Hmmm. That could very well be it.

Things In Life That Have Been Goin Down Yo:

• Dad &&me are not ( Read more... )

Hollyyy Shiiizznit. It's been forever since I've wrote in here!

School started...borring as helll.  I have some freshmen classes, and they all stare at me because I' am now officially the big bad  Senior.  Ohhhhh and for all you suburban schools that think your better then us city schools, back up cuz I (the senior) now have off campus lunch which ( Read more... )

Come up to meet you,

Tell you I'm sorry.

You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you

Tell you I need you.

Tell you I set you apart.

T ell me your secrets.

And ask me your questions,

Oh, let's go back to the start.

Running in circles,

Chasing tails.

It's only science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,

It's such a shame for us to part.

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I just don't want to live anymore.

Last week I held 8 pills in my hand, and I would have taken them all but my Dad inturrupted me.

I don't know what to do anymoreee...

People say things get better in the long run, but I'm not willing to live long enough to see that.. if it means living like I'am now.

Everything hurts...especially my heart.

"Let ( Read more... )

Holy shit joee. It's been a whileee.

Soooo...this whole week I've been with Rob. He called my blufff.....he really did wanna hang out I guess. And las nite he spent the night at my house...

I had a mega partttyy...got wasted as hellllll....andd my tongue was able to get some action along with some other of my body parts..  Haha. =)

Adam came to the ( Read more... )

Alrite soo....I slept sooo late today...I got up at like 11.

I was up until 3...and from 12 till about 130 I was talking to Rob. He said he thought we should hang out more...yeaa...whatever. I'm not gettin my hopes at all..  Whatever. I know I'm stupid. That's all there is to it. If he calls me he calls me, and if he doesn't it will be just like ( Read more... )

I don't know what to say....speechless.

Antonio is leaving Wednesday. We've been having some serious talks about "us". Ah, whatever. I don't want a relationship right now anyways. I feel bad for not caring as much as I should though.

Talked to Rob (him) las nite. I don't know. It just hurts so bad. How pathetic I know. Sometimes..well most of the ( Read more... )

I had a dream about Rob (him) last night.

Whhyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?! Why God?! Why me?!

Yesterday:

• Went to this badass car show in Mundeline with my Dad. It was fuckin great, he brought his GTO and I had awesome time. =)
• There was a 67' Mustang For Sale at the show (my fucking favorite) but the guy wanted $8000 for it, and my Dad said he would have bought it if he would have gone down on his price. GRRRRRR.
• Antonio called me and I ( Read more... )