I think last night was my epiphany of life.  I had a conversation with my brother about Robert..he made me realize a lot.

There are gonna be a lot of changes for me.  Big ones.  I'm really scared about life rite now.  Especially at this point in time.

I need my music to drown me out of time.

I'm gonna give myself a tattoo tonite.  I've got it ( Read more... )

What You've Done To Me

Tugging at my hair,

Listening to that one song.

My whole day rolls by,

Consumed by the thoughts of you each day.

I guess I'm not enough,

And getting over you is gonna be tough.

I kept praying for a change in you,

Something special, just for me.

I hoped it was you,

Now I just feel used.

I'm turning away from you,

Come grab my ( Read more... )

I was having a good day..then something came over me.  My past just haunts me. Nothing goes away, and my family just makes it worse.

Were still at Larry's and I really wanna go home.  I like it here, and then I don't.

I was lying in bed today, and I remembered when he picked me up from my house that nite. I can jus picture his smile when I ( Read more... )

Yea so today I jus did absolutely nothing.  It was rather boring I must say.  I slept until 12..and I'm still tired.  I'm not coming home until Monday mourning though..so I'm all bummed.  I kinda want to go home..I have nothing to do here, so it's boring.  =(

Talked to Heath las nite..haha...I'm still shocked. =D

We jus got back from Dairy Queen, ( Read more... )

Woke up at 10 today...tooo earlllyyyyy. I'm sooo tired, but yet I feel like dancing.   =)

I've realized that things aren't the same anymoree. At all.    It made me think about a lot. =(

Downloaded some songs from Itunes for my Ipod.  They make me think about him...but so does every other song.

I'm writing in here now cuz I won't have ( Read more... )

Sooo...

Yesterday:

• Went shopping with Katie.
• Bought a cute blue miniskirt.
• Bought my Dad a shirt.
• Bought a ring.
• Went back to my house, and I got drunk as hell.

Alrite..soo...ummm...

Today:

1. Slept really really late.  Randy woke me up, and we had a decent conversation for once.
2. Finished doing my overnite laundry.
3. Watched episodes of One Tree Hill from my Season One Collection.  (your jealous I know)
4. Painted my fingernails and toenails hot pink...it looks pretty sexyy.
5. Snuck downstairs to the wet bar and ( Read more... )

What a shitty day.  I feel like shit...I look like shit...and everything I say and everything I do is wrong.  And everything seems to be making me cry.  I feel so alone.

I talked to him a little today...nothing special.  Somehow..tears are still falling from my eyes.

I kinda said some stuff to my Mom today that I know I shouldn't have.  She ( Read more... )

Yea...sooo yesterday was funn.  It was nice to see the old family friends...catching up and whatnot.  Had a lot of laughs, and they made me jealous with their big beautiful 5 bedroom house.  They deserve it tho, they work hard.

Talked to Mom today..she mentioned something about going to Great America on Saturday but I don't wanna go unless I have a ( Read more... )