my dearest bardley is moving out of his mothers place as we speak. i knew he said he was going to, i did not realize its imminence, however. he has apparently been moving things since last wednesday. im sure his mother is going to be incredibly lonely without him. empty nest syndrome and the like. shell be in that house all alone. i feel sort of ( Read more... )

so... i just wrote this really long post and then decided to delete it. i feel much better now that i can see some white in this text box again. basically im wasting even more time before i start on this project that is due tomorrow. in fact, i have wasted so much time that i am now considering by-passing it completely, just sticking with what i ( Read more... )

i wish i had a cd player in my car and an unlimited supply of gasoline. i would take my camera and drive forever. i can close my eyes right now... there is a world of darkness being breached by sunlight, daring to filter through my blinds. i can visualize a million wandering people in their black veils and a million nights robbed of their splendour ( Read more... )

so... aranda got tickets. she is sitting so far away from the stage that it makes me feel grateful. hopefully neither of us will get kidnapped and raped or anything. if we do, it will probably be worth it just to see them in concert. or, if were extra lucky, maybe maynard can have his way with us. ;) i think i would be willing to physically harm ( Read more... )

oh, girl, dont you go necromancing. just you let dead things lie, and dont go mourning the loss of what was never alive. but, she says, there were flowers. let that memory be orphaned in the gardens where you sat beneat a rose-dripping arch in the shade. abandon the imprints and wipe your skin clean of these fingerprints. the silver has turned to ( Read more... )

ooh... how positively fucking magical i tell you. i am acquiring a sum of liquor and setting up a get-together or sorts. chaos is in my blood, and i am aching for a party, pounding music and all. i am going to set this town on fire.the yeah yeah yeahs kick ass. fever to tell is a fucking awesome album. go buy it. right now ( Read more... )

on may 15, everything will be fine. everything will be perfect. and every day between now and then is just a series of loaded seconds i have to endure. but then there will be music. i am almost happier that my friends will be far away from me. it makes me a bit nervous, and of course, who doesnt want floor tickets? i wish aranda could go. i think ( Read more... )

i am ocean-bound, and if you take my hand i swear ill take you right down into those waves with me. i am a star, been busied falling for way too long, and the crash is here- are you coming? i will take you under those waves with me and deep down into caverns that your mind could never dream. sea scapes of insanity in which we can lose ourselves... ( Read more... )

what to do when old flames come a'calling? i simply do not know.i went to the library like a good little girl. however i did not go until around 9:30 and stayed until 11 or so. i felt little sense of accomplishment in simply surrounding myself in books, so i checked a few out to prevent frequent visits to said library. andrew, the bloody gentleman ( Read more... )

i can see it so clearly, hear the sound of your breathing. pirouettes a plenty and eyes aflame with the history of your own two hands, the travels of all theyve touched. i can see you spinning so near me, dancing with such forlorn elegance, with autumn heartbreak in every step. a world of noise i long to scream and silence, but they could never ( Read more... )