i wasnt quite as nervous about this paper until i saw that hannah was nervous. when hannah freaks out for me over something, ive got a pretty good idea that im already screwed. 8-10 pages, 15 sources, at least 5 of which must be scholarly journals, 150 note cards, bibliography. due monday, may 17. how far along am i? well... i checked out some ( Read more... )

wow... i'd just like to say that if anyone else was planning on treating me like complete shit and acting like a total asshole to me, now would be the opportune time. i prefer for the lot of you to just come all at once, so at least its one collective onslaught rather than several separate ones throughout the course of the day. i just got back from ( Read more... )

wow... its a good thing i woke up when i did. a few minutes after i came to and decided to brush my soaking wet hair and tidy up my room a bit, brian knocked. i must have slept through his arrival... or the storm drowned it out. the first thing he said when i opened the door was "i like your room". quite confused i surveyed the space behind me and ( Read more... )

my apathy towards existence forbids regret in most cases, this being one of them. ((shrugs)) im content. isnt that what matters? i only feel bad when ive caused someone else harm or made them uncomfortable. ive long since realized that little in this world can truly harm me. im content and youre unscathed. thats really all that matters ( Read more... )

the sky opens up & the world crashes down, spiraling infinitely through a vacuum we created in all these drowning voices and washed up dreams. theres a peppermint swirl of human existence spilled carelessly in the midst of this pearl oblivion as it permeates the abyss, pull us through its tunnel in the train cars of despair where we ride. the ( Read more... )

"You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way ( Read more... )

so this is my life? im existing in a world where i walk for eight miles before i gain an inch. im existing in a world where if we could only use blood for currency, i could be filthy fucking rich. im existing in a world where the sight of my smile offends an entire nation of people and the sight of my sadness induces disdain. well im broke & im ( Read more... )

sow what did i do today? first and foremost, i gave it hard to that ap language test. bite me, college board, youre no match for my superior intellect. ;) the rest of the day was pretty much characterless. i did work on my collage for L'etranger, however. ive been staring at it since i finished... it really looks amazing. the lines bend together ( Read more... )

prom was nothing to speak of. i can say with full confidence, however, that i looked amazing. hannahs jaw dropped and she kept repeating the same compliment several times in five minute periods. the after party was nice until brittanis boyfriend took my drink away at one point and then proceeded to make the situation worse by asking me these ( Read more... )

the sickness progresses. i felt better after eating something this afternoon, but that only took a few hours to go back downhill. as night approaches, i continue to feel worse and worse. ((sighs)) i spent around $12 buying pills- some vitamin c as well as some whole herb echinacea-goldenseal. i figured id take the advice of my friends hippie ( Read more... )